Peaceful Day~

Today been staying at home the whole day! Haha..actually plan to go national library, but coz of certain reason ended up didnt go.

Febby juz called me:

Febby: Alan..U finally pick up my phone, been trying to contact u since 2 to 3 days ago!

Me: Oh sorry, u finding me for?

Febby: Wat happen to u? Why didnt attend lesson? Something bother u?

Me: Erm nothing serious..and thank you for your concern.

Febby: And hows ur assignment? Due date arriving soon. So u ready?

Me: Ah..kinda sianz sia..damn stress. Nowadays too many stuff stuck in my brain and make me lose control of my brain!

Febby: Relax..why not tomorrow u come to school? Tml no lesson but me and Fendy will be studying at school. U come and look for us, we will try to help u ok?

Me: Omg..Febby thanks so much! Thanks for helping me!

Febby and Fendy..really thanks for showing me both of your caring. I really never regret knowing both of you as my friends! I think without both of ya, i dont think i can really cope up with my school work and assignment.

Today i had been spending quite a happy and peaceful day at home! =D Although nothing special, but i juz very happy la! Erm..ya very happy..

I wanna say sorry to K2, coz he been asking me out this 2 days, but i keep rejecting him. Coz i really dont have any mood to go too far away from my house..Really very sorry!

Omg, im still coughing! Really hate this virus so much! I think thats all for today, and gonna relax abit coz tml i muz 100% go to school as i already promise Febby! Nite all!

Well well well..

Its 4.15am right now, and i'm still awake! i dont know why nowadays during the wee hour and i'm alway very awake. I think i need to try and sleep no matter what because tomorrow i'm going to National Library at Bugis alone. Yes alone again..Already use to it.

I notice i really cant be able to study at home. I will either sleep, watch pps or playing games! OMG! Btw this afternoon when i was looking around Youtube, i found 1 interesting game that caught my attention. The game call Aion. I want to play la! Haha..I gonna play that Aion online right after my exam or after i found myself a job.

I got tons of things to do right after my exam. And the things are:

Build a new CPU for myself. (Sick of laptop)

Looking for a stable job.

Meet new people.

Anger Management. (No choice because when i start working, i need to control my temper.)

Oh ya, did i mention enjoy before starting of work?

Play Aion Online!

But of course, first of all i need to study for my exam and also finish up my assignment too! Nowadays i really very stress over my assignment. Whenever i'm sleeping, i still can dream of my assignment! I think i'm overstress!

Ok guess now i really need to try and sleep..Oh i need to take my medicine before sleeping! Damn, been coughing for about 5 days! Kinda sick of coughing right now! Hope by tomorrow i can be able to recover! Night guys!

Boat Quay Riverside!

This morning while i'm sitting along the riverside of Boat Quay, something flash in my mind..

When i look in the river, i saw reflection of the moon.

When i look up to the dark sky, i saw tons of shining star surround the moon.

When i look straight along the riverside, i notice it was so deserted.

When i look around me, i notice i was all alone.

When i was alone, i notice i think and start missing you.

When i start missing you, i started to remember the scene earlier.

Finally something caught my attention.

And the something was a cat.

The cat was sitting alone on the chair watching my tears flowing out from my eye.

I was relieved because i notice, i'm not the only one alone.

After a short while later..

The cat's partner arrived and sit beside he/her.

I'm back to alone once again.

虽然很努力练习着忘记
我的心却还没答应可以放弃了你
说好要忘记偏偏又想起

原来我的心还没有答应放弃了你
真的对不起虽然曾经答应了你

我却还没答应我自己
却又如何真的不爱你

Cough cough and cough!

Picture of the day! Nong sleeping in the pub! OMG!

Been coughing this pass few days! OMG..everyday i leak of sleep. Only slept for around 3 hours per day! Wanna know why? Not because i dont wanna sleep or not sleepy, the main reason was..because of my bloody cough! Whenever i started to sleep, i will cough non-stop! Hate this kind of feeling! Grr..! Hope to recover soon!

OMG my assignment..damnit! I need to redo all my section A (information system development)! Wanna know why? Due to the mistake i had made! I went to research for Multiview 1, but the assignment required Multiview 2! OMG! Was so piss la! I just dont understand why the question paper shown Multiview 1 diagram! OMG..hate it! Need to burn midnight oil tonight!

Yesterday went to Parklane and played L4D. Haha..Not bad was quite fun playing the new map! Played with Yiting and Nong! Stupid Nong la! Keep shooting me! Actually for full blood, let him shoot until yellow blood! OMG! After our lan gaming, we went to Boat quay for our weekly routine~ We went to drank Yiting's balance as there still left 3/4 full. I brought a jug of beer for myself because find it quite PS if i only drank her balance. Erm..Yesterday still ok..Oh ya..Met Kimberly at Boat Quay yesterday..She was with her bf..Haha..Follow on by, Pamela, Zen and Yong Xiang. Didnt walk around Boat Quay yesterday because i'm still coughing and dont really wanna drink so much. Oh did i tell ya that Nong fallen asleep yesterday?! Wahahah! Si Nong! Tired still dare to jio me go Boat quay!? Smack u la! Haha..

Friday nite and im still at home!

OMG today is Friday and yet im still at home! Grr!! Haha..Bo bianz, been overspent last month. And this month i need to be guai kia staying at home. Actually also not that bad staying at home because i can get to do my assignment. OMG I hate doing assignment, it really stress me out sia! Hope u can be able to finish all my assignment on time!

Been coughing this past few days. Was seriously sick ok!? My forehead was like .. so pain la! Damn it..The pain really destroy my day sia! At night before sleep, cough like crazy. Early in the morning after wake up, forehead hurt till i felt like banging the wall!

I so feel to go boat quay today la! Grr..But i must control! I believe that i can be able to control myself! Felt like knocking on the pig's head lor! Haha..

Oh Jovin mei ah..ur birthday just pass..Hope u enjoy ur day ok? Wow ur birthday really make me broke leh! My birthday, im gonna make sure that its my turn to make u broke! =P Haha!

Erm..ok nothing more to type liao..Now i gonna rest awhile..and after that carry on with my assignment! Hope everyone enjoy their Friday's night!

Woke up from my lala land

Today i was so sick! Fever + coughing = ruin my day!

Im so hungry right now..Today the whole day, i only ate 1 meal. And now im suffering from gastric pain!

What to blog..

Ok i dont wanna blog anything abt me today! Only know that my heart will becoming very sour if i mention things about me..

Nong!

Nong ah nong! Please stop doing those stupid thing to yourself ok? I know you promise me that it gonna be the first and also the last time. But as ur kor, i still afraid that you will still do the foolish thing over again next time. You are still young, and i told you before..you still got a bright future ahead waiting for you! Dont because of a tree give up a forest ok? And i know you can do it..If you think you are making the wrong decision, why not take this wrong decision as a lesson? If you felt sorry for what you had done, why not treating this as your lesson? Life faces ups and downs..Dont alway get so emo that easily ok? U got tons of good friends, family members and us! We alway be there for u understand?!

K2!

Bro ah bro..I know recently u are feeling super down because of Jenny. What things you had done already done. The only thing u can do now is to face it and try to fix it! I know you are very strong! U will overcome any problem that you face! Bro..If u need a listening ear..Please feel free to look for me ok? Bro forever!

Jenny!

Sister! Woot! Sister orh la orh la..dont cry ok? Saw u cried at speed really broke my heart u know! And trust me..K2 really change! I know u can feel it, is juz that u dont wanna accepted it am i right? Sister..Why not..juz give him 1 last chance? I know u very xingu, coz actually u wanna hold his hand, hug and kiss him. But because of the incident, u force urself to stop. Nvm..Juz sit back and watch hw he change ok? If he dont change..i gonna whack his ass for u ok? =D

Clarence!

Ah bro! Haha..Everytime u may appear that you are strong. But actually you're not! I know you are down over your ex gf..But u juz dont wanna tell me everything! T_T So sad..Dont drink so much! You been spending on drinking this few weeks! Did u notice? Save all the money la bro! We may not know each other for a very long times, but i alway treated u as my good bro..(although sometime kinda jealous over u haha!)

Zhu Kai!

Stupid la u! Find a job la! OMG! I believe you told me that u already try your best looking for a job, but i want you to add in more effort! You are no longer single like last time! U still need to taking care of your son! Juz look for any job with any income first! You hor..need to keep rushing u de leh! KNS! Better go and look for a job hor!

Vans!

Vans ah..U ah..alway think of earning fast cash! Grr..U also muz control ur spending la! U spend too much on your car liao! How about ur son!? I miss ur son soo much. T_T Dont know when den can i be able to see him again! But he juz dont let me carry him la! Grr! Ok serious..Vans..try to carry with the job u have now and dun keep driving around with ur car la! Ur son also need more of ur attention understand?!

Jeff!

Erm..U ah..Stop flirting around la! Bro ah bro! Actually i also cannot say u, coz i also almost the same as u but of course not as fortune as u la! Haha..Job gonna start liao right?! Work harder and earn more money ok?! Jia you!

Alex!

Brother! MIA ah! Ask u out, u keep telling me cannot! I know u need to save money for your daughter, but not asking u out to drink la! Ask u out for some simple dinner la! I really miss the day when we alway hanging around together! Havoc together! Haha..But i know the day wont be arrive again as u got ur own family to take care of. Jia u ok?!

Puay Yong!

This is the most xinfu guy among us. Haha..Jia you with ur study ba..and dont miss me ah..lol!

Yiting!

Haiz..actually got alot of things to say u de leh! But..think i dont have the right to say u. Juz wanna remind u something. Muz alway be happy understand? Must alway remember..try to enjoy and fill ur happiness day by day. I know its hard for u because only *important person* can fill ur happiness. But..Haiz..Jia you ba..hope ur right man will arrive to u soon! Will be praying for u!

What i should be doing!

How do i walk away from someone i love

And take the road of friend;

Can i reroute the course i have taken and start over once again?

I dont really want to let u go, but inside me i know i must.

The times you've left, my heart says stay but..its my mind i must trust.

We have share alot of problem together,

Laughter, emotion and ever tears.

Yet sometimes we cant turn back time

We must walk away, and allow ourselves to heal.

I know one day you will be happy

And your soulmate u will find;

May life be gentle with u.

May God's best come ur way.

And on some quiet tml

You will be realize, thins were better this way.

Home sweet home..

Erm..today timing was kinda pack..Haha..Actually nothing much happen also..

Morning pack my bedroom as i find it quite messy..And i think i cannot tahan the messy liao..so choose to clean up before i went out.

Trying to repaired my other laptop as i found out that..it spoil again! OMG..Yes again! But this time i can 100% confirm that, it was the graphic card that make my laptop stop working..If i really wanna repair it, it will cost me bomb! At least 400 bucks!

At around 3.30pm, went to fetch my granny..I brought my granny to the soup restaurant and eat. I already promise her that i will treat her when her birthday arrive. After finish eating..me and my granny was chit chatting and smoking at her house's void deck. Haha..

Around 6pm..meet her for dinner..as she was so damn lazy to buy food outside. After finish eating, we chit chat for awhile. Erm..after that she accompany me to the comic shop, while walking toward the comic shop..I keep disturbing her until she cannot tahan..Haha..damn funny la..Oh ya..in the end, we played L4D at the raider until 12 midnight! OMG..lol..

After that..

Home sweet home!

I wanna add on something..Hey! My mooncake leh! T_T

Was hungry and yet i dont wanna go down and buy food because i dont wanna see couple walking around in front of me again..Kinda hate that feeling sia..

Ok ba..kinda lazy to carry on blogging..see ya..tata

time flies!

Wow now its 6.35am and yet i still didnt sleep. I juz dont know why am i still so awake? I dun feel sleepy at all. Erm..Haha..maybe too use of night life? I'm so lonely..Haiz..i been lonely for 2 years close to 3, but i still cant use to it. While i was eating outside alone, i saw a few couples was holding hand and walking around right in front of me. I was so envy. Wondering when is my chance to hold my gf's hand walking around. The night for today was so lonely and peacefully. The wind was so calm that make me feel like walking around at the garden locate near my house.

In my 24 years..i was hurt 3 times. I must promise myself not to get hurt once again. I must try to stand up no matter what! I got tons of buddy who is supporting me right now, and also 2 lovely jie and 1 cute aunty. I mustn't let them worry about me anymore! I'm still young, and i got ton of chances to find true love. I will learn my mistake from failure.

Ok..time for me to sleep because i got lesson later..see ya all =D

give up

Juz back from my house nearby coffeeshop not long ago. Why i went to coffeeshop? Haha..no no..not drinking..was drinking coffee with Zhu Kai and Vans. Both of them travel to my house downstair juz to chit chat with me. Haha..But juz now both of them like..erm..quarrel ba..Luckily got me! Haha..I'm juz like a waterhose that can clear away the fire! +D

I know its time for me to give up. I muz really make up my mind. Yes i gave up!

Tml Friday! Go drink anyone? =P

Time for me to relax..see ya..

Im fine..

Happy memories always pass so quickly. When happy is gone, sadness will arrive. But no matter how sad i am, i believe that i will still overcome it. But one thing to be true and that is, i dont think i will fallen in love so easily now. I will be back to be one that really make myself happy. My own business and that is flirt~ I now believe in Kama, because i already got my Kama. I know the road ahead going to be quite a tough road but i still need to walk to the end. And yes, i believe i can..

Actually this coming Friday i got planning..but planning change..And change to what? Of course change to drink la~ Haha..no need to say..

I believe i will be fine in the short while..

wahoo..

Ok first of all..Nong! Happy birthday! Hope u enjoy ur birthday this year! Haha i know i abit too late..but leh, after ur birthday i was abit sick tat is why now den i blog. +D

We went to Speed (Boat Quay) and celebrate Nong's birthday. Actually did enjoy at Nong's birthday but also emo at the same time. I never show it up because i dont wanna spoil all the people's mood. After tat..same old thing happen..went to riverside alone again. Haha..Lucky during that day, nothing happen at boat quay..Haha..

Yesterday was quite a happy day for me..haha..secret for been happy..but i did enjoy myself la..Haha..cook coke chicken..watch drama..i know it may sound normal..but for me..kinda happy..

Juz now i had a weird dream. Guess wat did i dream of? OMG..in my dream..suddenly got tons of police knocking on my door. Den i saw Terrence was with them. The police asked me out and wanna question me. The first question they ask..Did u go to AMK this few days? Are u ast? LOL! I was like blur blur la! Den kanna handcraft up the van..WTH this kind of dream..OMG..

OMG..keep coughing! Damn it la!

Later need to go and have my haircut..This time no more ah beng hairstyle. Because i need to look for decent job soon and need to have a decent haircut. Bye to my long hair.. and bye to my dye hair =(

I dont know why

I dont know why..

我心好痛。我感绝得好痛好痛。痛得我的眼捩涕了下来。

The feeling was so sour..

Later going down to my house nearby coffeeshop and drink..

I hate this kind of feel..

back from bq..haha

Juz now went to bq..erm..alone..yes alone..haha..went there drink 2 jugs but doesn't seen like 2 jugs. Wanna know the reason why? Because..erm..actually went there juz wanna repaid Kelvin's money because been holding bill 2 weeks ago. I tot of finish drinking going home, but ended up..omg..ppl keep asking me to drink..haha..Lucky im not drunk but abit high high nia. =D

Why u not at bq? Tot can be able to see u..but..

Juz went to view ah nong's blog..since like he quarrel with his gf once again! OMG BRO! please! told ya before liao..u still young and u got the look..why so sad over a 1 week relationship? Get over it man!

Went to bq alone..but i felt very lonely..yes i admit i got tons of friends over there..but they are not actually close to me..How i felt..k2, jenny, jeff, nong, clarence was there with me..Grrr..haiz..i think i go and rest la..felt abit sleepy now..night all +D

Move on with my life!

I'm a cheerful guy! I'm a happy guy! I believe i am! Yes i believe in myself that i'm happy and cheerful! I must be proud of myself! Yes I am!

Went to jog just now, but only jog awhile because my leg was damn pain. Maybe due to nv wear my sport shoes for very long time and it hurts me. Today i didnt get to go library. Wanna know why? All thanks to my brother Nong! Haha..he said he was at Sengkang so i rush back home right after to school juz to look for him. I know it may sound gay..but i very long time never meet this little bro of mine! Worth it ba! Haha..Since i cannot jog this few days, i think im going to do some sit up and replacing it.

Missing someone really suck alot! I really hate this kind of feeling! Haha..I tried to avoided the stupid feeling but it still return it back to me after a short while. Guess i need to calm down for a few days before i can stand up once again? Maybe? Haha!

Just now Nong said 1 sentence to me in msn.."You will find your true love soon!." I was wondering..Soon? How soon? 1 year? 2 years? I been finding it for years! Since i broke off with RuHui, i totally cant find any true love ANYMORE! Do i still need to flirt few more years more?! I really kinda sick of this kind of life! Flirt...flirt and flirt! I wanna stop drinking! But whenever i think of something else..i need drink to control my stupid emo..Ya i know it is rubbish to said drink can control emotional thingy. But one thing can be true abt drinking is..When i drunk..i no need to think so much! =D

Angel: ALAN WAKE UP PLEASE!

Devil: Alan..dont wake up so early..juz carry on with ur flirting life..it can cure ur everything!

LOL..i know i very bo liao..haha..BO LIAO!

i juz cant sleep!

OMG, i'm super hyper active now. I dont know why! I juz cant sleep! Not sleepy at all..I didnt get to sleep well yesterday, and yet i'm still hyper. Maybe too many things in my head right now. Ok i think i had enough of stupid relationship thingy. I think i'm going for a hair cut few days later to change to a new image! And i need to go for jogging, i think from tml onwards! I need to set myself a target!

First: Slim down!

Second: Get fit!

Third: Concentrate on my assignment!

Fourth: Drink less!

JIA YOU!

sick sick and sick..

I dont know wat happen to me today..Head and eye kinda pain..

Now im still waiting for her sms but after yesterday things occur, she not the same as usual. Because normally she will text me asking me, wat am i doing? Or maybe some other stupid text from her.. =P I was damn freaking sad when i saw one of her msg. She wrote.."but the me now...cannot keep him away from me." Omg was so hurt when saw this msg. I tot i still can be able to take it..but..Haiz..Erm i know why my eye so pain liao..coz actually feel like crying but coz no tear coming out from my eye and cause my eye to be so hurtful.

I keep waiting for the phone to ring, yet i know it wont be you.

I tried to fill my life with busyness, yet all i do is think of you.

How could you turn and walk away, as i watch my castles turn to sand.

How could you forget me so easily, and you i cant erase.

I want you to be in my arms again, to see the laughter in your eyes.

BUT i guess the joke's on me..

This is the feeling that im facing now. OH noes..Later think going my house nearby and drink a few bottles of beer. Since how tired i am, i still cant get to sleep..Why not go and relax plus refresh my mind abit? Erm..15 more mins i go down ba..Bye!

Hate myself

I HATE MYSELF FOR BEEN MYSELF!

Yesterday went to boat quay, to look for Clarence as K2 told me that he was very emo. But ended up i myself was the one damn emo. Was drinking and playing happily until the one appear. And saw something that really hurt me..I tried to control my feeling for not letting my emotional out. But actually i failed to do so. Do u know something? My tear suddenly flow out from my eye! But lucky, im wearing cap and cover everything up~ Its my second time that i damn damn emo when im still in the pub. Emo till my tear flow out from my eye. I totally cannot take it, den i find someone to flirt with! But when i found i notice i got no mood to flirt anymore. Haiz..Tot she was the one for me to settle down, but ended up..I think it was kinda impossible anymore because i totally cant replace the "he" from "her" heart~ OMG i start to emo again~ Damn control myself please! BYE!

lala..

Erm..didnt blog the past few days because was kinda lazy..haha..

Yesterday went to Zhu Kai's house with Siquan and Jeff. Was drinking and playing card game but i dont know why, i was so damn tired when the time strike around 3am. After Jeff went home, me, Siquan and Zhu Kai start talking about what we had been doing when we was young. Was actually singing the whole night too..haha..

Siquan, dont be sad ok? Just try your best with whatever you can. I know its hard for you to take it about your relationship life, but try not to look back to your past and must look forward of your further! Understand?

In a serious relationship, dont ever make the wrong move. If you make the wrong move, you will end up suffering! If you want to settle down, please settle down properly by not making any mistake. As for me, i think its time for me to settle down..I really dont wish to play around like what i did during the past. Erm..Haha..lazy to blog liao lor..coz its time for me to call someone liao! =D I notice i took alot of stupid photo yesterday before sleep. Haha..Think was drunk? Haha!