Erm was it really worth the pain i get?

Was it worth the the countless hours?
My mind still races and never stops asking.
Then I ask myself was it worth all those beautiful flowers?
Or was something in their color lacking?
Was it worth the time we spent together?
Or was I just replaceable, like old, brown, cheap leather
Did the days in the park mean anything, as the hot warm sun shined down upon my lover?

The numerous memories we had together, you blew away as if light as a feather.
And the fruitful dreams I had of YOU turned to nightmares cold and black
Because the pain I felt from you was worse than searing burns upon my back.
You showed no sorrow, for the heart you turned hallow, so I had no choice but to follow.
So I left my empty heart and tried to take another’s, like you had shown
But the sounds of tears from another heart did nothing to fill my own
Was it worth going through so many others, after my heart was shattered apart?
For the pain still remains in the bottom of my heart.

Rain rain go away!

Oh its raining heavily now! Feel like running out of my house and enjoy the comfortable rain drop that was showering on my body! But i cant because i need to pay attention doing my stupid assignment! Tomorrow i need to show my demo of database to my lecturer and now i still haven start! OMG! Haha..i guess i'm not going to sleep again tonight! Burn Midnight Oil!

Yesterday went to Boat Quay awhile to attend Kerina's birthday. Haha went there for awhile only and took cab home. I notice Boat Quay nowadays getting more and more trouble..Need to stay away from Boat Quay from now onwards..lol! remember i'm a guai kia! And oh ya! I didnt drank a single drop of liquors..Haha its good..because i wanna have my healthty live style back to me once again!

So sad to heard from Ron that his cab wing gonna fly away soon! His the only cab in Singapore that has wing on it! OMG look cool lor! Too bad..Singapore rules so strict..What to do? lol..I took the pic of his cab the last time before he take off the wing..Say bye to your wing..lol~

Finished my presentation for my demo website!

Haha my website! WOot nice?

Woot i finished my presentation yesterday. Was kinda stress at the first place, because i dont know whether i'm leak of anything important before my presentation not. Lucky i only leak 2 function for my website and that are..Ewallet and blog. Lol..Stupid Viart template..they didnt provide me this 2 function at all! I guess i need to hard code the website myself! Hate it!

Yesterday was quite a boring night for me! nothing to do at all! Lol..But actually even ask me to go out yesterday i also dont have any mood..because i'm damn freaking tired yesterday..Guess because i leak of sleep ba..Was rushing my website the whole bloody night before yesterday and cant be able to get to sleep! grr..But still no bad, at least i finished doing my website! Wahaha! So happy!

I notice something! I found that i look more and more like a fool! Ya she did treat me good, but the main problem was..doesnt mean even she treated me very good, she still can did something behind my back? I knew it all along, is just that i just closed 1 of my eye and thats all. I'm getting tired day by day..Dont force me to look for that guy one day..I will if you drive me crazy!

Oh ya today is Kerina's birthday..I dont know whether i'm going? If i go means i need to spend money again! AHh..i wanna to stop myself from spending anymore money on drinks anymore! I dont think worth it! I can rather use all those money to buy myself xbox games or maybe some other useful material! But i already promise her that i will be going today! Ahh..

Was sleeping soundly when early in the morning 7am plus, Vicki called me! Ahaha! asking me..lai we eat breakfast leh! WTH...asked me to travel to Sembawang just to eat breakfast with ya? OMG la! lol..Why not u come Sengkang and eat breakfast with me!? After she hang up, i cant be able to get back to sleep..wanna know why? Because i suddenly cough like crazy..Hope my cough faster go away...

AHh..nothing to do now..feel like playing xbox...but no mood..feel like doing assignment but lazy..lala..haha..dont know la..i think now i see whether got any movie/DVD to watch not..lol..if not i sure gone crazy soon!

Heavy head!

OMG now i'm having hang over? Today i felt very sick! Maybe due to the Vokka! Yesterday went to ate steamboat with Alex, Ah Cai and Vicki.. Haha..i only ate abit..dont know why..Was eating halfway and Sihui called me. She was crying because she quarrelled with her bf, so i suggest that she come and look for us. After she arrived..Alex went to catch bear bear for Sihui as he wanna to cheer her up. Haha u know wat is the funnest thing? Alex used up his 20 bucks and he caught nothing! Haha i rather he pass me the 20 bucks and i go up and buy a nice soft toy for her..After that we dont have any planning to go where..lol ended up Alex suggust to go to his house..He got tons of drink over there..So we agree..

We went to brought Vicki to work and after that we wait for Alex's taxi's driver to arrive. Haha when he he arrived..Alot of people was looking at him because he drift + blast techno..Lol what kind of taxi driver is he sia. We took around 17 mins from Boat Quay to Woodland..Fast am i right?

Ok..after that drinking session start..Was just normal drinking and playing card games lor..nothing much to do also..Was not drunk at the first place..but after Vicki arrived at Alex's house during 6 plus am..i was dead drunk..haha..

Until now my head still very heavy lor..i really cannot drink Vokka sia..if not i really will get myself into great trouble..lol..The pic above was wat Sihui was doing..haha funny sia..

Sunday Sunday and Sunday

Wow so fast weekend gonna end soon! And tml will be Monday Bluez again! Omg..Tomorrow full day class!!! OMG...I'm gonna suffer again!

Yesterday went to Boat Quay with Ah Zai..Was quite boring because i had been going Boat Quay often nowaday..I think its time to quit..Opps..I tot i said i gonna anti Boat Quay before? Haha..Ya i mean it..i gonna anti Boat Quay! Yesterday when Ah Zai was drunk, he make me quite piss off! Wanna know why? Grr! When he's drunk and was standing right outside the toilet. I asked him to go inside and sit down relax..He like giving me those stupid attitude. Feel like giving him 1 punch and wake up his idea! But ended nope, coz he been treating me drink all this weeks..Haiz..nvm ba..Let it pass..

After that me, Alex, Vicki and Ah Cai went to Wild where Han Ming is working..We went in by back door..Haha at first was quite boring, but ended up quit fun.. And during the meanwhile, i tot i heard Vicki said something to me..But the music was so loud that i cant heard..So i asked again, but she dont wanna tell me after that..But i think i heard wat she said, but not very sure only..Haiz, why she put tatoo on her arm..Not nice..look like ah lian as i know she's not one of the ah lian..Actually yesterday Han Ming jio today go V2, too bad i cant go because tomorrow i need to attend full day lesson..OMG make my life so sad..

So sad that Q Mo went in and sit..During my birthday he still ok ok, and he also helped Alex settle his thingy. But the next day i heard news that he went in to sit for 1 year. His a good leader, brother that can be trust, but too bad.. Haiz..Shit Alex, he tell alot of ppl that i'm a fighter? Oh NOES! I'm not ok!? What if 1 day i kanna aim how? Shit Alex! Haha, i dont think i will kanna aim because been such a good boi pass few months..Also i'm a grown up man, know what to think..Actually i wont fight or create trouble unless people step on my tail or my really really close buddy in trouble..

OK thinks thats all for today..Actually plan to do my assignment now..But now totally no mood..haha..think i go and play awhile xbox before start doing..haha..I'm so lazy!!! WOot

Arlow all! I'm back!

Haha..My birthday just pass..Erm..But alot of ppl said i MIA..I know its wrong to MIA..Sorry to those i MIA from..But i got my own reason..Hope ya all understand..

I brought myself a Xbox 360 for my birthday. Lol just wanna make myself happy and thats all. Siquan and Jenny brought me a bag which i really like it very much! Thanks so much!

I'm so boring..Lol i just completed Resident Evil 5! WOot...I completed with Andre...haha we played online..Its a damn fun game! I rate it 5/5! Graphic = good.. Gameplay = good.. Storyline = good.. Love it! lol..Now i'm strangling what to play next.. Opps..till now i still think of playing? I need to start doing my assignment fast now..If not i dont have time to caught up with others..Tomorrow i'm going to school, no lesson for me..but i'm still going because i need to go school and do my assignment..Thinking of going National Library..Haha..See hw ba..I cant do at home..Because if i'm at home..either i'm sleeping or playing Xbox..omg..lol!

Pam pam..U going overseas liao..do take care of urself..Hope when u are back, u still can be able to contact me again, coz i dont know when i'm going to MIA again..

Now i really think real carefully liao..Better stay away from relationship better..Relationship will really cause myself into deep deep trouble..Oh noes..i think tonight will be a boring night for me as i just completed Resident Evil 5..lol..Dont know what to do now..I got 1 more game called Gear or war...but i find it quite boring..lol..I think tomorrow i go and look for a new game for myself ba..Maybe some action RPG games that is fun..

In the stupid class having stupid lesson..

So boring..Haha now im in class listening to the stupid lecturer teaching stupid java..OMG the subject is the one that i hate most! Haha..

Yesterday i'm damn sick..I dont know wat happen to me..feel like vomiting the whole bloody day..What i ate, will ending up vomit out. Yesterday was such a terrible night! Haiz, when i'm sick..there is no one to taking care of me..How i wish there is someone who will sit beside me taking care of me yesterday, but its just a dream to me...

2 more days is my birthday, but i dont know why i dont really wish the day arrive. Ahh i think i need to pay attention already, if not i dont understand what the hell he is talking about!

Sunday bluez...

Erm..later i need to go Boat Quay again..Place of sadness..Place that make me drunk..Place that make me remember of my sad memory..Normally i dont go Boat Quay during Sunday, but no choice..a friend of mine birthday and i need to attend her birthday as she called me personally and remind me of going down. How i wish Alex will be going to Boat Quay as he can accompany me over there..

I'm so boring..still got 4 hours more to go..Actually Alex called me and asked me to meet him for dinner..I dont think i'm going because i need to eat with my family later..Haha..Erm..

I wanna go cut hair..Cut my hair short..Need to change to a new image..Attract more gals..haha..I dont know why nowaday my dog (Gogo) keep following me around..Normally he dont dare to enter my bedroom, but nowaday he keep trying to sleep either outside my bedroom door or sleep right next to my bed.

I noticed that..alot of my friend surround me was attach while i'm single now..Haha..I think i remind single for awhile more before looking for 1 serious gf..My awhile maybe another 1 or 2 years. As a single boy, i can be able to flirt around once again. But currently there is no target for me leh..I'm so poor thing..

I think later i only go to Boat Quay for awhile, i dont wanna stay too long around that area..Quite sad and boring..Been drinking damn alot nowaday..Haiz..Even my sis also started to scold me for drinking so much nowadays. I dont think i will be drinking much later ba..Just few glasses will do, unless Alex go Boat Quay..haha..Only he can make me drink alot..lol..

Erm..Lonely..Bored..Sianz..

Erm..its 1am and i'm still at home rotting. I dont mind rotting, i no mood to go out also but i just dont know why my heart felt empty. Is it usual? I hope the answer is yes. Today been MIA for the whole freaking day..Off my hp and no one can be able to contact me. Rainning damn heavily this afternoon and went to walk under the heavy rain to keep my brain fresh. Now i think i'm a bit sick..Haha..i deserve it~!

Downloaded few Hokkien song..I dont know why, maybe i find them nice ba. Also been emo-ing the whole day..Trying to edit some asp.net thingy ended up didnt, maybe no mood? I received alot of sms after i switch on my hp..WOW 20+ sms..but i didnt really go and read all..After that i off my hp again..

Should i go and sleep now? I dont dare to sleep now because i scare i will end up waking up in the middle of the night. I think my life nowaday totally screw..Now i feel like drinking again! Erm..this few days i drank alot~ But i myself also dont know why..I dont really wanna to be a heavy drinker..I think i should try to anti Boat Quay.

Oh ya..i thinking of cancel off my birthday celebration. Due to some personal reason. I mood to celebrate this year..Alot of memory flash into my mind now..I try to stop thinking of them stupid things..but no choice..Erm i guess i go and sleep now..If later i really woke up in the middle of the night..den no other choice..I will just open the door and went to the coffeeshop nearby my house and went for few bottle of drinks ba.

Miss me ? Yes or no?
Love me? Yes or no?
Hate me? Yes or no?
Am i important? Yes or no?

Lala..i gone crazy again..Haha..nite all!

Back to the lonely road..

Yesterday damn happening at Boat Quay...I dont know why i hate yesterday sooo much. Firstly was Apple..he did sometime silly in front of everyone~ Kneel down of everyone and asked SiHui to be his gf. I was shock at the first place, but also PS when i saw wat he did. And of course SiHui still rejected him. But she was cruel enough to throw the flower into the dustbin right in front of him and asked him to get lost. Haha..no choice..relationship this kind of thingy cant be force.

After she did that, Apple damn emo..He nearly got into trouble in Martain Entertainment. Then the customer very piss off with him, and Carol tried to peace the Customer down..Ended up, i think they also piss off with Carol. After that me not very sure as i went down and smoke, until Carol came down and complain in front of me and Alex. Alex was so rush that, he asked me to go up and see wat they trying to do. I was quite worry during that time because Alex was sick and yet he so rush. But lucky, Apple approach them and said sorry to them.

After Apple, was Ah Zai..he super rush also..He asking me to call ppl go down Geylang and find that fuker..and keep asking me to pass him weapon..and during that time of course i tried to peace him down..Coz i dont really wanna find any trouble..Sick of getting trouble..

After awhile..was Kerina..She went crazy after heard that her friend got knock by other guy and that guy said "stare wat stare?". So i accompany Kerina they all look for that guy lor..but due to different shirt..i cant really do anything just standing behind watching..They are so crazy that they went 1 pub by 1 pub looking for that guy, but lucky they never went in X bar. If they went in..Bobby they all sure very piss off, and both side is my friend..

Erm...quite lazy to type all the things out...i will just short cut everything..

After Kerina...

Apple went to cut his hair..by himself in boat quay..

Yong Xiang and Apply tok things out about SiHui..

Kerina another problem which i dont really know..

Ah Zai went crazy...

SSB (Secret Society Branch) arrived..

Gabriel and Ah Zai's friend got problem..

SSB came back and started to standby..

After that peace until my turn arrived!

Joanna keep calling, i also dont know what the hell she called me for what?! She keep asking me to accompany her drink..But the problem is i dont want! I felt very irritating as she keep calling me and i dont wanna pick up. After sometime she stop and i tot everytime went well..Me and my gf went to 7-11 and buy some sandwich for our breakfast. Was so happily choosing..After that we went to seat at the nearby coffeeshop and start eating. And when i said..OMG Joanna damn irritating! She keep calling me! My gf started to piss off..and said..she is ur gf ma..I was abit piss during tat time..and i replied..What do u mean by that? Is it my fault? I didnt even asked her to call me at the first place..and i even trying to run away from her! I understand that she is jealous..but also cant push all the blame to me am i right to say that? After that she brought everything out and said..Said she very sad, stress while with me..I started to piss off so i throwed something that is lying on the table..I hate she said 1 sentence..She said..Both of us are not suitable..After i heard this sentence, i super piss off and i walk away..Screw it!

People said..this year "Cow year" was very unlucky...Not say unlucky..is just that everything cannot be so smooth..Now i believe that..Because..this year is a year that really screw up my life!

My birthday arriving..

My Birthday arriving soon..just 1 week more to my birthday. Haiz..i dont know why..just wish that my birthday dont arrive so fast. Erm..i received a very sad news from my bro (Siquan)..He told me that Roy's mother got cancel..and will not be able to spend more time with Roy anymore..I really feel very sad after heard the news. I knew Roy's mother since i'm very young, her mother was very nice, kind, friendly and caring mother. Really feel very sad..Tomorrow i going to meet Siquan and go to Roy's house and pay her mother a visit.

OMG..been drinking really very heavily nowaday..I really need to try and quit drinking. If not my body sure cannot take it. 2 days ago i was damn drunk..haha very long never drink till so drunk liao. Yesterday i hang over until night! The feeling was terrible!

Assignment! Omg..stress over my assignment now! Why time pass so fast! I still haven enjoy myself and assignment already arrive. But i need to make sure that this sems i must really study and work very very hard! I cant affort to fail~ Jia you for myself!

Nowaday everything was fine..haha just need to plan my time carefully..