EXam

Exam is getting nearer and nearer. OMG, and my stress is getting higher and higher. Had been emo-ing the pass few days. Dont really know what actually happen to me. Why am i so emo? The emo was totally different from last time, i dont know what kind of emo it is..but the emo was something that will sour my heart. I need to figure out what kind of emo that i'm facing now, if not i will be very xingu. I wanna to buy car! I cant wait to get myself a car! Lancer or Mazda, which car should i buy? Can anyone help me to choose? This few day i'm so tired, whenever i saw my bed i will automatic throw myself on the bed and sleep.

So long didnt went to boat quay, i miss boat quay~ Haha..So long didnt drink liao, and also very long didnt go club. My sister birthday gonna arrive soon, i dont know what should i buy for her? Treat her 1 bottle of martel or treat her 1 bottle of coke? Lol! OMG this coming Sat was my exam date..so scare! May god bless me!

emo-ing?

Wanting,
lusting,
to be held,
to be loved,
to feel warmth,
to feel your beating heart.
Wanting to be sheltered from the cold,
heartless winds.
Falling into invisible arms;
into an abyss of love.
Wishing,
hoping,
that my desires will be filled;
my desires of loving warmth.
Wanting to be held,
comforted,
loved.
Dreaming of passionate embraces,
of tender kisses,
loving words,
romantic nights.
Waiting for undying love.

Nice website

I just found a website that can download alot of songs~ Woot damn nice. I dont need to use torrent and download anymore~And finally i found a song that is real real nice..omg..love it! OMG my exam gonna arrive soon. 29th my first paper..ahh..so stress..But when my exam start thats mean my holiday gonna arriving soon. I cant wait for that day to arrive! After arrive..I wanna go clubbing~ Pub~ drink~ Enjoy! Xiaoming's master gonna join me right? Haha! Yesterday rain damn unfair..So sad..when i emo dont wanna rain..Haiz..But actually..How to say ar..I hope it rain, at the same time also scare it rain. Want to know the reason ma? Because if rain i can relax under the cooling water that pour my whole body wet. Erm why i scare when it start to rain when i can relax under the cooling water? Because i scare i will get sick..I'm not afraid of sick, but i'm afraid to sick during my exam..

Yesterday i went emo again! Heart was so painful..OMG..why the pain arrive again? Oh maybe is that something wrong with my heart? Haha..

多久了没有你的消息 上一封简讯是星期几
又错过了与你的约定 对不起真的不是故意
有时候没办法陪著你 你总是对我说没关系
放不下我对你的任性 对不起不该让你伤心
有时候 你会让让我
儘管我大男人发作
有时候 你会装作不懂
默默地 留一些空间给我
这些事情 其实 我一直都藏在心裡
请你原谅我不懂逗你开心
请你原谅我不懂听你的心
回想这过去 我学著让你更安心
别赌气别任性别放弃 说声对不起
别赌气别任性别放弃
请你相信我我会更加珍惜
请你相信我我会呵护著你
小小的爱情 却是我最大的幸运
疼爱的 想念的都是你
请你相信 一个这样的我
请原谅我 对不起 对不起

~Shuffle Shuffle~

OMG now my leg so tired! Haha guess why my leg so tired? It was because..just now i went to shuffle -_+ ... Stun right? Haha while waiting for msn to reply me, i went to youtube. I go and search for new shuffle. Haha..came across 1 group of teenagers shuffle very nice. After watching the video, i was damn high..haha..so i just shuffle awhile..was rusty coz too long nv shuffle liao. After shuffle for few mins, i dont know why i suddenly on techno and shuffle for around 30 mins! Omg..ended up i sweat alot and force to bath! Haha..Now i'm lying on my comfortable bed and rest my 2 heavy legs..

Before reach home, i suddenly felt very emo. I dont know why? I also dont know why suddenly i felt a sharp pain in my heart..Erm..the feeling was like..heart very sour..and also knife is popping into my heart..The feeling was very familiar, like i had this feeling before.. My mind was full of rubbish..Ahh..wat happen to me?! OMG..Emotional problem nowaday! Oh ya i remember why i find that feeling so familiar. It was because of Ru Hui! Last time she gave me this kind of stupid feeling before..omg.WHY WHY WHY! Please go away! I hate this feeling!

Feel like walking in the rain!
Feel like dancing non stop all night long!
Feel like drink till drunk like nobody business!

All this is impossible before my exam end..After my exam i gonna make the top 3 happen! Ahhh leg sooo tired!!!!!!!

Perfect Boyfriend?

I just finish reading "Perfect Boyfriend" the comic. Erm..its actually gal gal type of comic, but i find it very interesting and romantic. I cant stop reading that after i read the first ep. So funny lor..but ending really very sad. I can say it was a sad ending ba. But overall i rate it 5/5.. Haha..Really very nice..The story is about robot and human relationship. Very nice..go and collect it! Lol..

Haiz, i 'm still study for my exam..Kinda stress! Really very stress..Even doctor also say i got high blood pressure due to my stress. Haha..But i just need to tahan few more weeks and i can rest! I really wish the day faster arrive because i really cannot take the stress anymore! OMG..School really suck!

OMG tml i still got morning lesson..how am i suppose to wake up?! I dont think i will get enough sleep, i think i need to stop studying now..prepare to sleep and wake up early in the morning..I think i gonna finish my homework at school.

I want to have a good girlfriend who can take good care of me..Erm not say take good care of me ba, is just accompany me, supporting me..give me moral support! Keep thinking..Haiz..am i not handsome enough for a good gf? Why i so envy other who keep getting a good gf? Am i very bad? I really stop all my flirting why still cant get a good gf for myself? Do you think i should go overseas and relax myself for few years and come back? Been thinking of going back to Taiwan for abt 1 to 2 years, after that den i return back to Singapore. Do you think this is a good idea? Haiz...Sianz! Suck!

Am i very guai!?

Woot i'm still at home rotting! Wahaha..So sianz now..

Juz now i went to Bugis with Jenny, Siquan, Vans and Zhu Kai. Went there to eat steamboat..Haha actually i'm very full and dont really feel like eating, but since Jenny insist want to eat today so nvm ba..accompany her. I dont really eat much..After few meat and few plates of prawns and i'm totally full. While i'm eating, i saw my ex gf..Oh not Ru Hui..She is my gf while i'm still seconday school. Haha..Her name call Hazel, now she becoming choingster liao~ Everytime i saw her, she will said..Oh later i'm going St James, u wanna tag along?

Just now i received a T-shirt from Siquan, and he told me was Honey brought it from Taiwan. I was quite shock..The T-shirt quite nice and cute..Haha i like it very much..Honey thanks so much~ Btw Honey is her name and dont get the wrong idea. AH..sianz..sleepy again~ Dont know why nowaday i'm so sleepy..haiz..

Still very sick!

OMG..yesterday i didnt blog due to very very sick! I'm sick till i cant even walk around. Yesterday morning i feel so weak and yet i need to mop the floor and wash my house kitchen floor. Poor me hor? But no choice, coz i didnt told my family that i'm very sick at the first place. After finish mopping and washing the floor then i decided to tell them i'm sick.

Haha, my family force me to visit the doc, i dont want at the first place..but no choice liao because really really very sick..But damn piss off..You know hw much ??!! It cost me 47 bucks! WTH! SO EXPENSIVE! But he gave me alot of medicine sia! I hate eating medicine! AHh...! Around 6 plus Kelvin called me and asked me to go Dennis 's house and do assignment. At first i dont feel like going because i' really super sick, but ended up i decided to go because he said with Dennis around sure easy to do assignment. But still ok la..Coz Dennis's concept is totally different from mine. At around 1 plus am, i suddenly felt my sickness getting worst so i decided to take cab home. Haiz, i hate sick! Till now i'm still very sick lor! Later i going to have my hair cut! Haha..After that .. dont know liao.. depend ba..

Saturday?!

AH..i'm abit sick now..Dont know why, maybe is because i dont really sleep well past few night? Haiz, later i need to go V3 the thai disco. Actually dont feel like going de..but hor no choice, already promise them that i will be going. Sianz, i wanna save money and not spent money! Ahh..

Shuffle shuffle~ Later i can shuffle until i gone crazy liao..lol..Haha after i put Shermaine this hampster face name on my msn..guess wat? My msn flood! OMG..all the people keep asking me the same question over and over again! Guess what they asked? They asked " WOW got gf liao ar? nv intro?" or "I LOVE SHERMAINE! Can i snatch her away from u?" or "Shermaine is ur gf ar?" or "When u got a new gf de? how come we dont know?" HAHAHA..ok listen! She's not my gf! lol!!!

Omg..throat so pain now..Haiz..I hate myself from getting sick! I juz came back taking my stupid medicine..i think i need to go and take a nap liao..see ya all..AND NO FIGHT TONIGHT PLEASE!

Friday?~

Today is friday and now i'm still at home! Haha..normally around this time i will be at boat quay punch card! Lol..firstly, i need to finish my assignment before Sunday and second reason is because i promise xiaoming's master liao..Ahh! lol..i'm sick of doing assignment now liao leh..
On the 11th i will be very very very busy~ Haha..My brother ROM and also xiaoming's master birthday. I need to cook..Had not been cooking after i broke off with Ru Hui liao! Haha..abit stress..Scare that the taste will be sux..Haha..

Few things i need to do:

1st. Trying to quit smoking
2nd. Need to quit or lesser my drinking (means i will not be going to boat quay often)
3rd. Cut hair and dye to down color as fast as possible
4th. Need to save alot of money nowaday because 11th i may need alot..haha~Jia You!

The first 3 things above was my quite hard for me to do, but i will need to do it no matter wat! Must moral support me ok?

Quite long didnt meet my brother Siquan, and sister Jenny liao. I got alot of things to tell and share with u all guys leh..I miss the day when we went out together..Chit Chatting..Drinking..haha..Sorry for not meeting u all guys nowaday because was kinda busy..Hope u all understand ok? Wondering how have u guys been doing? Now must be choing-ing earning money right? Must always take care of urself ok?

~~~~I MISS U LIKE CRAZY~~~~
Haha..

Relationship..

I'm alone..I'm lonely..

Yesterday night around 1am +, i went to NTUC to get myself something to eat. A middle age couple went in together with me. Wherever i went to which part of the NTUC i will saw both of them en ai choosing the things they want to buy together. So envy ! I'm all alone! Very lonely staring at both of them..Keep thinking..Why the gal i love dont love me? And why gal i dont love keep coming to me? Why? Am i too ugly to let gal who i love to accept me? Now totally lost confident..Or am i not a perfect boyfriend? Now i dont have girlfriend, but i got tons of friend who supporting me..and of course my family and my 2 lovely dogs =D

I wanna dote on someone i really should dote! I dont wanna flirt! Please no flirt! I hate flirting now! I really think i should be monk for the next few years..Screw my relationship life! Screw it!

Full assignment day today!

Dont angry hor kelly! haha..sorry i know u dont want me to post..but find it kinda nice

Today i'm not going anywhere but staying at home doing my assignment..! OMG..Assignment assignment and again assignment..Assignment really make me gone crazy! Juz now while i'm chatting with Kelly on msn, den she suddenly said...Alan! U hor! .. i was like huh? Den she said " u go and view Keng Wei's friendster!" So i quickly went to his friendster and take a look..omg was shock that he went to uploaded the picture that i disturb kelly while she's sleeping in the chalet! Haha! But i really didnt hug..juz disturbing nia..haha..Kelly told me not to post..but i hack care..haha i find it kinda nice ma..! haha

So hungry now..Today really nothing happen sia..juz msn-ing with few friends of mine..i'm gonna start doing assignment when the time reach 5.30pm which is xiaoming's master escape from her work..haha..

If got any other thing to blog, i will blog later..oh Kelly after u saw the photo..please dont angry~ haha..but i know u wont de..

Choing-ing for my stupid assignment!

MMmm..Yesterday i had a wonderful evening, because was having dinner with a friend of mine who MIA for 2 years plus! And also my first time haven dinner with her. 3 years ago, hardly take to her on msn, because keep saying " sorry i gtg later bf dont like or sorry i gtg..i need to eat my chocolate (excuses)". I alway remember asking for her phone no in the msn, guess what she repied? She said " Sorry i cant give u my phone no because my bf dont like me to give away my phone no to other guys, but nvm ma..we still can chat on the msn". Haha..was thinking at the first place..mmm ya ba..still can chat on the msn, but how i know after few days she said.."Sorry guys, i wont be using msn anymore, if u wanna look for me, can private msg me in the friendster". I was like..huh WTH.."clap clap".. we didnt really contact each other for the next 2 years plus, den 1 weekday evening, while i'm smoking with Siquan outside Bugis's MOS burger i saw a gal super familiar and both of us was staring at each other (we didnt meet before in real life but only showing photo) . Suddenly she asked " You are Alan? Am i right? I'm cherish (dont know whether i spell it correctly not)." The first reaction i react was..nodding my head and say " Ya i remember..and where u heading to?". Haha..stun right?! A gal whom i nv meet before for 3 years and we still can recognise each other. Abit ps, because first time meet u, and i'm late for 15 mins! OMG is this what gentleman should do!? Both of us was complaining hungry before we met by using sms-ing each other. But..ended up we cant finish the dishes that we ordered earlier. Was chattng happily with her, sharing problems and also SUAN-ING each other. Time flies damn fast, been stuck in the restaurant for 3 hours. And its time to say bye bye..actually i wanna fetch her till her house downstair de..but ended up no because later she find me fan how ar? Haha..i'm not a guy who like to fan gals de lor..Actually still gt alot of things to tok but i know she's very tired and need a rest thats why ended up she going home while i head towards Sembawang! A sad place to mention.

I went to Sembawang is to meet Kenneth...We was talking cock till Si Hui and Alex arrive. Actually nothing to do much..Chit chatting all night long..Went to bed after i smsed the MIA for 2 years plus gal..haha..

Woke up at around 1.30pm today..and we went to AMK..haiz..nothing much to mention..kinda lazy..Still quite lazy for my assignment..but no choice..i need to do! The xiaoming's master lor..DO ur assignment la! haha..wondering tml what time lesson..haha..

Love?

When life had dried my spirit parched away the sparkle in my eyes,you gave me tears,that my dreams might drink again,and their roots might reach outseeking new gardens in my heart, you gave me the few drops to listen on the tender shoots

When I was fearful,frozen and alone inside of myself,you gave me tears,to melt the ice around my heart,and wash away the terror, that I could see I had nothing to fear with you standing by my side so gentle and so strong

When I ran up against some long forgotten pain,you gave me tears, and a shoulder to dry them on.You let me know it was ok and my pain would make me a stronger woman one day with your love to take me there.

When doubts about our love pulled me away from you,you gave me tears, flowing from your own eyes just to let me know I was wrong.With those special tears you told me Our love was forever and at your side is where I belong

Bloody face!

Haiz! Yesterday went to boat quay..was kinda fun but ended up face full of blood. At first, we went to bell belly there drink den to martain den from martain to V3. Was very fun while i'm in V3 because we was kp-ing with tons of friends inside. After V3, we brought ah nong's sister they all back to bell belly. Was slacking in the bell belly at first de..haha but found that Alex they all not around, so i been asking ppl where the hell they are. Finally know where they are liao, so i decided to go and look for them. Den i saw Kenneth and Alex was toking with other group of guys with a angry attitude. So i juz shouted Oi! wat happen? After that Alex he pull me away and say nothing happen..all know each other de.

After finish drinking in bell belly, Alex they all need to go off first because his cousin go and fetch him. So me, nong and Kenneth decided to go to the coffeeshop there eat something before we going home as the midnight cab gonna over soon. On our way to coffeeshop, we saw my mei Anderline so we stop and chit chat awhile. After that follow by Ah quack..Ah quack told us that he gonna treat us 1 bottle of Martell, so we went to bedroom. While we are smoking outside, Kenneth was chatting with a guy. Den i walk toward them and over heard the conversation. Kenneth was talking about the past how he got whack by *EHEM*. Den suddenly 1 guy walk toward Kenneth and shouted: CCB WHAT *EHEM*. Den out of sudden they start whacking Kenneth liao, as his god bro i sure wont stand there watch him kanna whack de ma..so i try to minimize the damage deal by them. But there got too many people and things that they used to whack us, ended up me abit blackout liao..suddenly when i'm clear again, i found my nose is bleeding and i got cuts on my face and mouth..Damn angry during that time. Haiz..!

SO FULL!

Just finish eating my dinner. I dont know whether later i'm going out or staying at home. Kenneth jio me go boat quay drink, haha but leh..yesterday already went to drink liao today still go? OMG i'm not heavy drinker leh. See Alex how ba..later Kenneth den call me back to double confirm with me.

Lets talk about yesterday. Yesterday was Halloween! Saw alot of different costume that other people wear. My meimei Anderline was wearing a Angel costume yesterday..haha so cute..While Ting Ting normal wear but she look chio with her normal wear. Haha..

At first we went to V3 to drink few jug of beer. V3 was a thai disco, was quite fun actually but hor the gal there really..haiz..Not say ugly but very sticky lor. While i'm sitting there enjoy my beer with my buddy, suddenly came a gal and dancing in front of me. I was like..huh..? Den dance nvm, but she dance nearer and nearer to me ended up her body was touching mine! I felt very weird so i try to move away, suddenly she hold me hand and hug her wrist! I was stun at the first place den she suddenly wanna gave me a love bite, lucky i siam away very fast. And someone keep asking me to kiss her..omg! Only know her for few mins nia leh! So i told Alex, faster finish the jug of bottle and we siam to pub ba. Coz more and more gal coming to our table liao..i getting more and more scare! But Alex's friend whose name call Jason..haha ya another Jason..He is a real hongster! He left hug and right hug! I was like WTH...After V3 we went to a pub dont know call wat de..Er..starting name is Guess blur blur.. U want to know why we go that pub? Thanks to Jason coz he say he wanna jio the waitress there. We juz tag along lor..the waitress mmm.. haiz..still ok looking la..But i dont like the environment there, was so sianz lor! I wanna run away de leh! But i buai tahan drink beer anymore, coz quite er xin de..So i asked Ting Ting to come over and help me drink finish the beer..After that we went to Martain Entertainment..Alex open a bottle of martell there..And was having there lor..coz finally found a place where we find it comfortable liao.

*Update*

Kenneth called me and he gonna meet me at around 10 to go boat quay...Haiz..drink again..I started to hate drinking. Oh ya! 1 more thing i wanna mention! I'm trying to smoke 2 stick per day! Trying to quit! Everyone wish me good luck ok? I know whoever after finish reading this sentence, he/she will say 1 sentence back to me and that is " You quit? Haha you quit i tok give you! or You say you wanna quit for so many years liao, please dont talk cock." haha Just wait and see!