答應不愛你

明明爱很清晰 却又接受分离
我只剩失恋的权利
难过还来不及 爱早已融入呼吸
不存在的存在心底

虽然很努力 练习着忘记
我的心却还没答应可以放弃了你
真的对不起 答应了你不再爱你
我却还没答应我自己

明明爱很清晰 却要接受分离
我只剩失恋的权利
难过还来不及 就让爱融入空气
不存在的存在心底


说好要忘记 偏偏又想起
原来我的心还没有答应放弃了你
真的对不起 虽然曾经答应了你
我却还没答应我自己
却又如何真的不爱你

Erm..started to recover from my sickness!

This is the state whereby im high + sick! haha

On my way home from boat quay yesterday with the sickness + abit of drunk, juz abit only

Yesterday was very sick..Too weak to do anything..But guess ended up where i went? Erm..If let Kim know..she sure scold me! Haha..Yesterday suddenly went to boat quay, went to drink 2 tower of beers. Oh did i said went with who? With Siquan, Jeff and Yiting. Quite enjoy yesterday, cause nothing happen..and i saw tons of my friends who was from Lion Dance last time. By the time i reach home, the time was..Erm..6 plus? Kim dont scold me once u saw this blog! Haha..

I just finish watching 仙剑奇侠传. Wow the drama was so damn nice lor! But the ending quite sad! i rate it 4/5! Those guys who enjoy watching love, fighting drama..Why not try watch this drama? Haha..

I just found some photo that was taken quite long ago..haha..Today i'm gonna upload quite a number of photo ba~

Oh ya! Yesterday im damn freaking piss off with 1 gal! OMG! Wanna know why? Yesterday was smoking outside Martain Entertainment with Siquan and Stracy oh ya still got 1 more gal who i dont know de. I suddenly ask Stracy...

Me: hey Stracy..Vico got work today?

Stracy: No ah..why?

Stranger gal: So wat even Vico didnt come to work?

Me: No ah..just asking ma..coz she was my jie wat..

Stranger gal: Ohh...means if Vico didnt work today u wont come and support Martain ah?

Me: Huh? I didnt said that ah..And somemore even Vico work, she also not working at Martain..She work Whiskey leh..So no link leh..

Stranger gal: Bo liao..Den ask for wat?

Me: Cannot ask?

Den after that i super piss and walk away~ OMG..Damn freak up! I tok to Stracy also non of her bloody business la! Lucky she's a gal! Grr..Maybe coz she's a gal make me more piss off! Cant do anything! AHHH!!! Oh ya later maybe going to play basketball at Aljunied 108..Woot damn long didnt play over there..lol..Ok la..think gonna rest awhile before i head out!

I miss this song!

I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

I miss you like crazy
Even More than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down when your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy
You are all that I want
You are all that I need
Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

OMG Im sick!

OMG im sick since yesterday morning. Was so damn xingu la! Yesterday morning when i woke up, i was like..omg..my whole body was so tired and pain, keep coughing non-stop and felt very very cold! But no choice, i still need to go to school..I already set myself a target! Muz get at least a credit for this semester!

When the time strike 4pm, the class end! WOot..finally! But before that i already asked Siquan to meet me at bugis around 4.30pm as i need to wait till 7 plus to go boat quay and pass Kelvin the money that i suppose to passed him yesterday. Since the time was still early and Siquan haven arrived, so i decided to walk from city hall to bugis alone.

When reaching bugis, suddenly i received a msg..and it was from Peggy~ She asked me where am i, i was like blur blur and replied her that im at bugis lor..But suddenly i remember that she studying at bugis area! The first thing in my mind was..YEs la! Got ppl to pei me while waiting for Siquan! But when she replied me, i was like sianz 1/2 because she said she was at china town! Damn..

After Siquan arrived, Peggy also arrived. So we shop and walk around bugis area until Zhu Kai came..We went to eat blar blar..den Peggy need to go home and change..because she need to work yesterday nite..So me, Siquan and Zhu Kai went to play counterstrike for an hour den slowly walk to boat quay..

Was very sick during that time, but no choice still need to go and look for Kelvin. Reached there around 10pm, and i tot Zhu Kai they all only order a jug of beer, but ended up they ordered 1 tower! OMG..Oh ya also saw Jeff over there..After finish drinking, me and Siquan faster rush to the bus stop and check whether got any last bus for us, but lucky enough..lol..Reach home around 12 plus..after awhile more..I cannot take it anymore..i went to sleep..I tot today i wake up i will feel much better, but ended up..still very sick..omg! And now i have running nose! AH..Freak..I gonna go rest awhile liao..bb

Lastly a zhi lian pic of myself! haha!~!!

Boring Friday..

Yesterday went to boat quay...Erm..actually quite boring sia..went there..sing awhile..and drink..thats all..haha..Oh ya..yesterday i was shocked that i saw Shermine (Jeff's ex) in the pub..But she was working there, not as a waitress but some other promoter ba..Erm..also not call promoter ba..Is juz that those customer brought 1 jug of Jack Daniel, they can be able to play poker with her..If they won, they can be able to get a mini prize..Thats all..Notice that, she become more and more pretty liao..haha..Maybe grown up liao ba..Not only Shermine..I also saw Angela in the pub too! Haha..Been running around yesterday..We drank about..7 jugs of beer, 1 tower of beer, 2/5 of martell at speed, and 2 jugs of beer at the pub where it locate near plush bar and finally 1 jug of beer at Martain Entertainment..Oh ya! I also saw Roy at Boat Quay! Haha..Tell ya wat...Ah nong was drunk yesterday! Haha! He was sleeping in the pub when the time strike 4am! GG! Ok liao..Nothing to do now..guess i go and play some dota match liao ba~ BYE~

Wow damn tired now~

Today i woke up damn early..woke up during 7 plus am..the purpose of waking up was not because im going to school..But i meeting Siquan and Jeff for some basketball match at Bedok CC..They said they wanna challenge the people over there..Erm..at first i asked them..Huh? Early in the morning got people going there and play meh? Lol..And they told me that..Ya..Bedok CC early in the morning sure got people over there playing basketball de..But when i reach there..Wow alot of people leh! I saw Siquan and Jeff was siting over there! And..the court was like..super cold! Haha!

I reach there..around 10? Lol!!! Was meeting them 9am de..But no choice..Wanna know why im late? I took 27 to tamp..and from there..i took 31 to Bedok..But Just now im damn stupid..Haha..While im waiting for the bus 31..Bus 31A arrived..I happily board the bus..paid $1.30 to the bus driver..The driver was looking at me..and asked me..Er u wanna go where? So as usual..I replied politely..Ohh..Im going to Bedok..Den the bus driver..replied..But this bus terminate at near Simei ITE..I was like blur blur..Erm ok ah..and didnt alight from the bus..Sit stupidly towards Simei ITE den figure out..OH DAMN! I board the wrong bus! OH freak! Haiz..That is the mean reason im late! LOL..

After that i reached home at around 4pm..was damn tired..Lol..So i decided to play 1 or 2 round of dota before i went to nap..but how i know..from around 5 plus..i nap until 10pm! omg..Ok i know im a pig..lol..I notice my face like got sunburn leh..Kinda pain..Haiz..Ok la..Im gonna on air con and watch my drama! Bye~

First day of school..

Guess what am i doing now? Was watching incredible tale on channel 8. This is my first time watching it..Alot of ppl told me that it was nice..So i planning to watch while waiting for nong..Wait ah..brb..was watching show right now..trying to concentrate watching it, if not later i miss some important detail..

Back!!

Today my first day of school..lol saw quite a number of unfamiliar face..And the most importable thing was...I saw 1 pretty girl in my class! OMG! Finally! Haha..

Just now Siquan called me..asked me to play basketball tomorrow early in the morning at Bedok! OMG..Haha..but also a good idea la cause i need to go on diet too..Ok brb again..show start again..haha..

Back again~

Actually..nothing more to type..lol..Oh ya..saw Kelvin after my lesson..Erm..quite envy..Cause he finish his study and gonna get his degree cert on the 25th..Haiz..If i didnt failed last time, i think now i also grad with him liao ba..kinda sad..haiz..

Ok nothing more to write and say..after watching that show, den play a few games with ah nong..after that head to bed and need to wake up early in the morning! Nite all!

OMG im so early!

Picture of the day!

Its 10.30am now and im already awake from my sweet dream! Im so proud of myself! Haha..Erm..but..the main reason i woke up so damn early is..later i need to go to school..OMG..School reopen today! So sianz..Say bye to my holiday and welcome to my school day..

Yesterday night had been thinking alot. I think i really need to set a target for this semester! What kind of target? Of course aim high mark for my module! I must not slack around like what i alway did during the past.. Think this time im serious! Wake up Alan! Wake up!

Erm..Still trying to figure out, what should i bring later? Lol..Pen..notebook...nothing? Oh ya..my MP4~ This is the must thing in my bag! I cant go out anywhere without my MP4! Think maybe tonight, im going to look for new song and upload it into my MP4~ So guys any nice R&B song to intro me!

Yesterday we had a wonderful dinner! Been years since i ate lobster! DAMN delicious lor! I ate till my stomach gonna blast! After dinner my er jie drove us home..I was damn scare in the first place coz my er jie had not been driving for 2 to 3 years..lol! But heng enough, we are all home safely! Haha..Must give my jie some confident! Ok done with my blog..need to prepare myself and pack my bag now! See ya all again!

Tomorrow School reopen!

Picture Of the day! Me and my Vico Jie!

So fast that today is my last day of my holiday, after today i need to go back to the boring school once again~ So sad..!

During Friday, i went to boat quay with Kenneth, Ah nong and 2 of his friends which i dont know their name~ Haha.. Drank quite alot..Total was around 4 bottles of martell if i include Mension in..
Took quite alot of picture during that night..but i took the most pic was with my JIE Vico! Haha..I think i abit drunk during that night! LOL! Hangover till very late last night sia! OMG i need to quit drinking liao! Promise myself..im not going to drink this 2 weeks! Later i dont know whether im going to play basketball with Wei Jian they all not..coz kinda lazy..haha ok i gonna upload some pic liao!

Ah Cai's Birthday

Erm..yesterday went to boat quay to celebrate Ah Cai's birthday..Erm..wait..before i start i wanna say something..

Hey For those reader..Feel free to look around, and for those who are not happy with what i wrote on the blog..please juz shoo off..Dont be a dog and wrote those bo liao things on the tag..This blog belong to me, i write what is up to my own problem..dont mind ur bloody business please and thanks..To John..i would like u to fuk off thanks..And also..please stop been a keyboard warrior thanks.. =D

Ok..lets carry on with the birthday boy..Yesterday was kinda fun nothing happen..peacefully thru out whole nite..Drank quite alot yesterday..At first..drank 2 jug of beer and 2 bottle of martell at speed..Erm there was around 7 people over there..After melvin they all arrive..we move on to mansion pub..Tell ya..OMG...drank damn alot sia..Drank roughly 8 bottles of martell..Oh ya..now den i know that yesterday i did ask a gal for phone number..haha!! We drank until 7 plus..during that time i was like KO liao..haha..I totally dont remember wat i did after that..

OMG pain pain and pain!

OMG i juz wake up from my dream! Guess what am i doing this whole morning!? Guess correctly? I was playing basketball with Jeff and Siquan! OMG damn tired sia! But was kinda fun..But why out of sudden we decided to play basketball in the morning...? Haha will gonna tell u the reason later..

Yesterday i was planning to stay at home and relax..Den suddenly Jenny called me and asked me to go boat quay, of course i rejected her due to running out of cash! Haha..But she still forced me to go(i dont know why she got the power to ask every people surround her to go whenever the people dont feel like going sia..u all can give it a try next time and test her power! haha)..So i went to boat quay..When i reach there, i saw Jeff and his gf..Omg..me single again while there are 2 couple! SO sianz and emo..But i went to boat quay also nothing to do~Haiz..drank less den 5 cups of beer..After that went to play lan..haha play L4D expert mode..the last part was so hard la! Keep dying..Been trying to complete it..but fail! Spent around 2 hours at the last part! OMG! After lan, we decided to play basketball near my house because only my house got basketball~ Haha..We decided to play any 3 on 3 match during end of the years..so now trying to train back our basketball skill! Haha..We played from 7am to 11am! That is the mean reason why my body hurts so much now! Haiz....OK time to burn my iso file and try to install window 7 in my other comp and test! See ya!

Drink and drink and drink!

SI Ah nong! Nah the photo that u keep asking me to upload de la! MAFAN!

Yesterday went to boat quay with nong..Was having alot of fun over there! Haha..But i nearly quarrel with Kelvin due to small matters..Oh btw Kelvin was the manager of the pub. But after awhile later..Jenny and Siquan appear! Haha..Was playing, singing + drinking till 6am! Ended up i was abit drunk drunk type liao ba..Coz i felt damn sleepy! U guess wat time i woke up juz now? 5pm den i woke up! OMG i think im a pig sia! And school gonna reopen soon..need to control myself for not sleeping till so late liao! Ah kinda lazy to blog..going to watch my drama again! BYE!

Woot..back

Wow now den i notice that i had been quite long didnt blog..Haha..what i had been doing all this days? Actually nothing much..rot at home watching Taiwan drama or some dota matches with ah nong and ah cai lor..lol..But tomorrow different..tml im going to boat quay with Ah nong! Haha gonna emo with him liao..I got too many things stuck in my heart for so long..wanna go out relax abit..

Erm..i must try not to get so emo also! Haha..I myself also dont know why..abit abit emo liao..Need to control my emotional thingy~

I think i must move forward and look for a gf for myself..haha..But kinda hard to find gal who suits me..Felt quite lonely when watching movie with 3 couples.. Why 3 couples? because 2 to 3 days ago, i went to watch movie with Jenny they all..OMG...3 couples and only me alone who is single..felt abit weird..Haiz..where is my love one? Or am i too ugly till no one likes me? Haiz..Sianz ah!

Erm..

This morning around 6am plus then i reach home..Erm where i went last night? LOL..I went to amk, Zhu Kai's house and slack..slack until the midnight charge over..den i take a cab home..Before that i was at the chalet..Omg..chalet i really drank alot..but also not consider alot ba..Erm..dont know la..Kinda lazy to think so much now..

I feel like drinking now leh..got alot of problem in my mind right now! I tried not to think so much, but it keep flashing into my brain..Grr..

Erm..Oh ya good news! Wahaha i today tried to repair my other lappy, and guess wat? It work! Woot! I decided to used my sony vaio for my school or outside work, and wont be use it for gaming, and i gonna use my HP to be my gaming lappy..haha..I notice my HP lappy's RAM spoil =( need to upgrade it to 2gib in order to run Window 7..Haha..ok ok.. its kinda late right now..guess i gonna slack awhile before sleep..nite all~

Back home sound and safe~

I juz reach home not long ago..Went to AMK and look for Vans as she was like emo-ing..Erm..Actually before i met her just now, i also know she sure quarrel with her husband..Erm..I wrote it short ba..We drank 9 bottle of beers...After that Alex, Siquan and Jenny arrived..Was chit chatting over her thingy with her husband..Of course we did find solution to solve the problem also..As for what problem between both of them, i dont wanna mention in the blog as its belong to their private issue..

I tot when i reach home, no more stress or relationship thingy happen..Suddenly Vans call me and told me that her husband was not at home..Oh btw her husband was a close buddy of mine..I was like..Haiz..den follow on by alot of trouble ba..Lazy to mention..

Now..all my buddy around me got bf..For example..Zhu kai = Vans, Siquan = Jenny, Alex = Sihui, Roy = PeiPei, Jeff = Angel... How about me? Haha..Where is my AIAI! Grr..They plan to go chalet tml..and they all going to bring their gf/wife along..Actually i dont feel like going, cause..kinda extra..all couple only me alone single..Do u get what i mean? Haha..

Saw her once again..But nothing to say..Just smile like what i always does!

Waiting for Siquan call now..ah now i juz wanna lie on my comfortable bed and read the comic i just brought just now..Wooo..Nite all~

For someone i love

Haiz..

I regret..i regret why i never look straight in your eye when i meet you..
I regret..i regret why i never said i love you earlier..
I regret..i regret letting you go..
Do you know everyday when i wake up, the first thing i wish to look at..is you?
Before i went to sleep, i would like to grab your hand and hug you tight to sleep..
I also regret..i regret why i never told you anything that i mention above to you before?
But..
Why when i able to tell you i love you and i would like to be with you forever..something happen?

Haiz..dont know why got this urge to write..Haha something went wrong in my mind liao..siao liao..i sot liao..