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I'm back to update my blog now. Was kinda busy the past few days due to my 2 project that the clients asked for. Fully flash website and blogshop. This is just my starting, after i complete this 2 projects, i believe there are more to come.

Mother, thanks for fully supporting me. I know you willing to fork out money to help me setup a company, but now isn't the time for me yet. Because i still leak of experience in this line. But i believe that, after few more project and i'm very familiar with it i don't mind risk it.

Everything went quite smoothly this few days/weeks. Nothing actually happen..Relaxing, chit chatting with friends or maybe chill out with buddy. I find myself a grown up guy due to the thinking of mine started to change. I'm no longer like last time who only know how to fight, play and hanging around doing nothing. The only thing i hope now is that i can be able to become a successful person.

A friend of mine yesterday said me in msn.."Alan, stop emo-ing over relationship. I still got alot of aims in life, what for coz of a relationship that cause my aim to lost their way?"

Ya what for coz of a relationship make my pathway so difficult? I can still be able to enjoy my life like what i did this past few days. Why am i keep running away from her whereby i did nothing wrong? Why am i so stupid to suffer all this while? The only thing i want to focus now is my project. I must complete it and making sure that my clients is going to be happy with my work! Jiayou Alan!

Hi all, i'm back!

Its 2010 now! And say good bye to 2009!

Been sometime since i last blog, quite happening nowadays. I also dont know how and wat to say. Life nowadays was so freaking boring and lonely! Kinda hate this kind of life! My life nowadays really went up and down. Emotion may change alot of times everyday. I was hoping that the year 2010 is the year that i can put my past away and move on to my bright future. But i juz cant put everything behind! The stupid thing will keep flashing in my mind every single hour.

Been drinking damn alot nowadays. Drunk is the only thing that happen to me on my everyday routine. But wat can i do? Hope my day becoming much better after few days..

Gonna have a neat haircut soon =D

Tomorrow or after tomorrow, i'm going to have a neat hair cut. Most likely will be short hair. Gonna say bye to my ah beng's hair style.

Today i'm damn tired! Want to know why? Started from yesterday, yesterday went to buy my formal shirt, pant and leather shoes. After that travel all the way from bugis to pasir ris to meet my friend. After that, went to meet Jeff because Jenny and Siquan went to look for him. Went to boat quay after meeting my brothers and sister. Erm..the night consider enjoy? Or? Can say half half? After everything, i went home alone..Ya..alone again..haha..By the time i reached home, it was already 7.30am! At 11am, my sister woke me up because i need to go bai bai at bedok! OMG..Was sooooo dead tired!

Was wondering why my life nowadays was so fuck up? Alot of problems pop up, and i need to settle and face it all alone! I dont know i can tolerate until when before i collapse. I really need someone there to give me a moral support, but too bad there isn't anyone..

Lazy to type..think i gonna rest awhile more! Bye!

Erm..getting close..

Ok first of all..I would like to say..My family business getting worst! And i may ended up supporting myself! OMG..means wont be going bq often as i need to learn and support myself.

I'm very busy nowadays because over my personal problems. Need to settle tons of things..omg..i'm so broke now! Now what i need to do is, put everything (eg. relationship, friendship, family) aside and concentrate on my stuff. As i'm running out of time!

I'm so tired right now..There is no one beside me supporting me..Was very very very tired..i may fall anytime..My mother asked me to go back and help out with my dad, but i rejected. Not i dont want, but i really dont know what to do even i work under my dad's company. Really hope that is someone special beside me and letting me lean. But this is just a wish..

Grr suddenly something pop up and i'm very stress..need to settle it first...

blog blog and blog~

Sooo bloody long never update my blog after i finish my exam. Nowadays also nothing serious happen..Drink..at home sleep, PPS.. Nothing much also..

Actually something happen to my family business. Actually was quite shocked after know wat is happening. I gonna depending on myself in the future..Was so excited..My sister they all said, how am i gonna survive without my parent's support. I'm so excited about depending on myself! =D

Nowadays alot of girls hate me alot. I dont blame them for hating me because its my fault. Just hope they learn their lesson from me..never even trust a guy so much! I also dont know wat to type..Nothing more to type..i think i gonna rest awhile..

No mood~

Today i'm so moody~ No mood to do anything, maybe today is the 7th ba..I notice something that's strange..Want to know why?

Wondering why everything that happen to me alway occur on the 7th? So coincident? 8 years ago on the 7th is the date when me and my ex girlfriend been together. 8 years later, 7th also the date when i said bye to her. The her not referring to my ex. I hate to said bye to her..but i had no choice..Just hope that she will be happy and know how to take care of herself. Hope she can find someone will force her to eat medicine when she's sick as she really hate taking medicine. Who will entertain her to the lanshop killing zombie, accompany her drinking when she wanna relax because she like to go out and relax after loads of work. Listen to her complain because she loves to complain about her work due to her manager. Pretending to sleep when she was sad, because she dun really cry when there is someone beside her looking at her. Let her bite, because she love to bite very randomly. Listen to her crap because she crap alot. And tolerate her everything~

I have change..Change to someone tat dun trust love..And also change to someone that i use to be..My sister keep telling me.. "Boy, please dun do stupid things. I know u been hurt, but dun because of u been hurt and u hurt some others. Remember, KAMA this word." Yes i do believe in KAMA, but what to do? In order to stop other from hurting me, i need to do it my way and ignore KAMA. Yesterday at boat quay, i do alot of nonsense by flirting around. I tot i will feel happy by doing so, but its not!

Tomorrow is my web engineering exam, and i still dont have any mood to study. But no matter what, i will try my very best in my exam.

Actually, in my mind i was thinking of leaving Singapore and go back to Taiwan. Why am i still here and keep thinking of her? I will be enjoying myself when i'm back from Taiwan. Be those rich kid and spoil by the parent. Driving around and woo gals. This idea keep flashing in my mind almost everyday!

I miss u, but do u miss me? I dun think u will be missing me as u are busying missing someone that u love. I do really hope to see u, but i know i should hold myself back. When i'm not around, please take good care of urself. I will try to forget u because this is the task i need to do. When one day we really coincident to see each other on the road, i hope i can still holding back my feeling towards you.

Just now i said bye to you when u are sleepy..Now i would like to say..Bye to u again..Bye..

Exam fever..

Tomorrow will be my first exam this sem..And the module is ISE (Information System Engineering). The module which i kinda hate it. Today i didnt attend school to meet Febby they all for study session due to certain reason. But i heard from Febby that some student failed their ISE assignment which really freak me out! I hope i'm not one of them who fail! I really grow tiring day by day studying..Hope my study end fast!

There are tons of event incoming during my exam period. But too bad i cant attend, as i mention earlier i'm having exam!

Tonight, i'm not going to sleep as i need to study real hard for my tomorrow exam. OMG i'm out of cig! Need to go down and buy but kinda waste of time! Brought 3 cans of redbull to keep myself awake through the whole endless night.

Been study past year exam paper this few days, hope it really work. If tomorrow exam didnt come out any question that i had studied this past few days, i think i'm going to find the tallest building in Singapore and act like a superman!

I wanna rest awhile more before entering the study mode..Was so damn tiring looking at words..Oh ya! Damn i had lost my spectacular! The words now i'm looking was like so damn blur! Actually my sis asked me to buy a new spec, but i dont really want to because my exam end at 8th! So what for wasting the money am i right?

Think around 3 pus close to 4, i'm going downstair to the 7-11 and buy cig. Tomorrow i still need to smoke so what for wait for tomorrow? I also need to give myself sometime and relax..stay away from books too..! My table full of bullshit now! Ok time to entering study mode! Bye and good luck to me!