Erm..getting close..

Ok first of all..I would like to say..My family business getting worst! And i may ended up supporting myself! OMG..means wont be going bq often as i need to learn and support myself.

I'm very busy nowadays because over my personal problems. Need to settle tons of things..omg..i'm so broke now! Now what i need to do is, put everything (eg. relationship, friendship, family) aside and concentrate on my stuff. As i'm running out of time!

I'm so tired right now..There is no one beside me supporting me..Was very very very tired..i may fall anytime..My mother asked me to go back and help out with my dad, but i rejected. Not i dont want, but i really dont know what to do even i work under my dad's company. Really hope that is someone special beside me and letting me lean. But this is just a wish..

Grr suddenly something pop up and i'm very stress..need to settle it first...

blog blog and blog~

Sooo bloody long never update my blog after i finish my exam. Nowadays also nothing serious happen..Drink..at home sleep, PPS.. Nothing much also..

Actually something happen to my family business. Actually was quite shocked after know wat is happening. I gonna depending on myself in the future..Was so excited..My sister they all said, how am i gonna survive without my parent's support. I'm so excited about depending on myself! =D

Nowadays alot of girls hate me alot. I dont blame them for hating me because its my fault. Just hope they learn their lesson from me..never even trust a guy so much! I also dont know wat to type..Nothing more to type..i think i gonna rest awhile..

No mood~

Today i'm so moody~ No mood to do anything, maybe today is the 7th ba..I notice something that's strange..Want to know why?

Wondering why everything that happen to me alway occur on the 7th? So coincident? 8 years ago on the 7th is the date when me and my ex girlfriend been together. 8 years later, 7th also the date when i said bye to her. The her not referring to my ex. I hate to said bye to her..but i had no choice..Just hope that she will be happy and know how to take care of herself. Hope she can find someone will force her to eat medicine when she's sick as she really hate taking medicine. Who will entertain her to the lanshop killing zombie, accompany her drinking when she wanna relax because she like to go out and relax after loads of work. Listen to her complain because she loves to complain about her work due to her manager. Pretending to sleep when she was sad, because she dun really cry when there is someone beside her looking at her. Let her bite, because she love to bite very randomly. Listen to her crap because she crap alot. And tolerate her everything~

I have change..Change to someone tat dun trust love..And also change to someone that i use to be..My sister keep telling me.. "Boy, please dun do stupid things. I know u been hurt, but dun because of u been hurt and u hurt some others. Remember, KAMA this word." Yes i do believe in KAMA, but what to do? In order to stop other from hurting me, i need to do it my way and ignore KAMA. Yesterday at boat quay, i do alot of nonsense by flirting around. I tot i will feel happy by doing so, but its not!

Tomorrow is my web engineering exam, and i still dont have any mood to study. But no matter what, i will try my very best in my exam.

Actually, in my mind i was thinking of leaving Singapore and go back to Taiwan. Why am i still here and keep thinking of her? I will be enjoying myself when i'm back from Taiwan. Be those rich kid and spoil by the parent. Driving around and woo gals. This idea keep flashing in my mind almost everyday!

I miss u, but do u miss me? I dun think u will be missing me as u are busying missing someone that u love. I do really hope to see u, but i know i should hold myself back. When i'm not around, please take good care of urself. I will try to forget u because this is the task i need to do. When one day we really coincident to see each other on the road, i hope i can still holding back my feeling towards you.

Just now i said bye to you when u are sleepy..Now i would like to say..Bye to u again..Bye..

Exam fever..

Tomorrow will be my first exam this sem..And the module is ISE (Information System Engineering). The module which i kinda hate it. Today i didnt attend school to meet Febby they all for study session due to certain reason. But i heard from Febby that some student failed their ISE assignment which really freak me out! I hope i'm not one of them who fail! I really grow tiring day by day studying..Hope my study end fast!

There are tons of event incoming during my exam period. But too bad i cant attend, as i mention earlier i'm having exam!

Tonight, i'm not going to sleep as i need to study real hard for my tomorrow exam. OMG i'm out of cig! Need to go down and buy but kinda waste of time! Brought 3 cans of redbull to keep myself awake through the whole endless night.

Been study past year exam paper this few days, hope it really work. If tomorrow exam didnt come out any question that i had studied this past few days, i think i'm going to find the tallest building in Singapore and act like a superman!

I wanna rest awhile more before entering the study mode..Was so damn tiring looking at words..Oh ya! Damn i had lost my spectacular! The words now i'm looking was like so damn blur! Actually my sis asked me to buy a new spec, but i dont really want to because my exam end at 8th! So what for wasting the money am i right?

Think around 3 pus close to 4, i'm going downstair to the 7-11 and buy cig. Tomorrow i still need to smoke so what for wait for tomorrow? I also need to give myself sometime and relax..stay away from books too..! My table full of bullshit now! Ok time to entering study mode! Bye and good luck to me!

Woot got back my lappy!

I juz got back my lappy..But Sony service quite suck! Want to know why?

Reason:

Sent my lappy to service since 18 Nov, and now its 1st Dec..They told me it only took 3 to 5 working days to repair my laptop but ended up wait for weeks! And yesterday i called them and told them whether my laptop is ready to collect? They said they cant find any problem, so i told them the problem..They replied me that since if i said the problem was right, means i need to change my whole mother board which cost me about 1k plus! I was shocked and in my mind was thinking.."WTH! You dare to change my motherboard without knowing/checking the true reason why my laptop ended in this situation?" Screw it la! So i said nvm i gonna collect it back without changing my laptop's motherboard, but just set it as default stage! After that he said he will give me a sms to collected it by yesterday. So i waited the whole afternoon and no sms from them! So this early after i called them up and asked them. They replied me that they gonna sms me again by 2 to 3pm for collection. So i wait and wait..when the time strike 5 and still no news from them! So i called them again and asked. They said by 7 i can be able to collect, but before i collect, i need to call them and ask them whether its ready or not! So i called them when its 7pm, but no one ans the bloody call! Ended up i went there without notice them as i called alot of times. When i reached there, i asked them..Guess what they said? They said my laptop is ready to collect and it already arrived very long ago! I was so piss off during that time! The service sucks to the hell la!

Kinda happening the past few days..

Found that friendship cant really be trust..

Food poisoning

Drunk..

Ok thats all..kinda lazy to post..bye all!

Computer!

Yesterday went to K2's house to help him and Jenny with their computer stuff. Woot..repair until 12 plus am and lucky enough and took my last bus home. When i'm on the bus, i notice i was doing nothing because i dont have anything that can entertain me with me! Oh no..started to think alot of rubbish since i had nothing to do on the bus! Thinking of my past..Kind of interesting past i had before! Haha..I really go through alot..

Later i need to travel all the way to my sister's company and help her repairing her company's computer! Oh..the time is kinda pack sia..because i still got alot of things to do =( But what to do..she's my sister..if i dont help her..who am i gonna help? Haha..

at the cinema..Haha..omg..so Yesterday me and K2 planning to watch movie..haha..only he and me..both of us gonna en en ai ai digesting..haha!

I'm still waiting for my lappy to return back to me! I miss my lappy so much! Oh please! Return it back to me as soon as possible can? I really cant do alot of things without my lappy with me! =(

My Vaio lappy was in the hospital =(

I wont be blogging this few days due to my lappy was in the hospital. My graphic card was burn and need to replace it with a new card, so no other choice but send to the service center. Now i'm using my old laptop which was kinda sux. And due to my HP lappy video card was down too, i can be able to on my comp for certain limit of times only. After that i cant be able to use for days because it will give me 3 long beep and 2 short beep error sound when i start my HP laptop.

I finally make a final decision 2 days ago. Guess this is the right decision for me. I know it's too sudden but i have no other choice! Been really down this past few days, but no matter wat happen, i believe that i can still overcome it! I just need to back to my normal routine that i had been last time. For those who know me well sure know what is my routine. I know back to that routine was kinda..erm..crazy? LOL!

Nowadays, alot of people really concern me alot..i can see and feel that. My two sister keep showing me that they care of me no matter what. Because this few days, i keep close myself in the bedroom after i'm back from outside..Den both of my sister will gently knock on my door and enter the room, sit beside me and asked me whether i'm ok? I know i'm hot temper when they asked me softly, but i just cant be able to control it, but they understand my feeling..they never scolded me when i vent my anger on them or showing my attitude..they juz telling me softly that they will wait for me to tell them about my problem if i feel the time is right to tell them. Both my jie..thanks =D

Now my blood becoming very cold..haha..Actually i dont mind to be a cold hearted guy as been a cold hearted guy wont hurt myself =D

I really hate the feeling of been alone..But guess its fated that i need to be alone. No matter how hard i tried, the final answer will ended up with disappointment. And i notice..been a good guy will really ended up get nothing in return, so what for been such a good guy? Been a bad guy will be the best..

This few days, i notice i really neglect my brotherhood alot..I really very sorry abt that..i wont blame u all guys if you all angry with me, as i know..not worth to forgive me..and i also wont ask for forgiveness. I know u all may look fine in front of me..or u all forgive me..but deep in my heart, i juz cant be able to forgive myself..

Think i'm back to 4 to 5 years ago.. Whatever things happen..i will need to face it all alone..cried alone when i faced something that i cant be able to solved. Vent anger on the wall or some other stranger..I deserve it..

I swear..i wont trust other so easily..

Take care..