I dont know why

I dont know why..

我心好痛。我感绝得好痛好痛。痛得我的眼捩涕了下来。

The feeling was so sour..

Later going down to my house nearby coffeeshop and drink..

I hate this kind of feel..

back from bq..haha

Juz now went to bq..erm..alone..yes alone..haha..went there drink 2 jugs but doesn't seen like 2 jugs. Wanna know the reason why? Because..erm..actually went there juz wanna repaid Kelvin's money because been holding bill 2 weeks ago. I tot of finish drinking going home, but ended up..omg..ppl keep asking me to drink..haha..Lucky im not drunk but abit high high nia. =D

Why u not at bq? Tot can be able to see u..but..

Juz went to view ah nong's blog..since like he quarrel with his gf once again! OMG BRO! please! told ya before liao..u still young and u got the look..why so sad over a 1 week relationship? Get over it man!

Went to bq alone..but i felt very lonely..yes i admit i got tons of friends over there..but they are not actually close to me..How i felt..k2, jenny, jeff, nong, clarence was there with me..Grrr..haiz..i think i go and rest la..felt abit sleepy now..night all +D

Move on with my life!

I'm a cheerful guy! I'm a happy guy! I believe i am! Yes i believe in myself that i'm happy and cheerful! I must be proud of myself! Yes I am!

Went to jog just now, but only jog awhile because my leg was damn pain. Maybe due to nv wear my sport shoes for very long time and it hurts me. Today i didnt get to go library. Wanna know why? All thanks to my brother Nong! Haha..he said he was at Sengkang so i rush back home right after to school juz to look for him. I know it may sound gay..but i very long time never meet this little bro of mine! Worth it ba! Haha..Since i cannot jog this few days, i think im going to do some sit up and replacing it.

Missing someone really suck alot! I really hate this kind of feeling! Haha..I tried to avoided the stupid feeling but it still return it back to me after a short while. Guess i need to calm down for a few days before i can stand up once again? Maybe? Haha!

Just now Nong said 1 sentence to me in msn.."You will find your true love soon!." I was wondering..Soon? How soon? 1 year? 2 years? I been finding it for years! Since i broke off with RuHui, i totally cant find any true love ANYMORE! Do i still need to flirt few more years more?! I really kinda sick of this kind of life! Flirt...flirt and flirt! I wanna stop drinking! But whenever i think of something else..i need drink to control my stupid emo..Ya i know it is rubbish to said drink can control emotional thingy. But one thing can be true abt drinking is..When i drunk..i no need to think so much! =D

Angel: ALAN WAKE UP PLEASE!

Devil: Alan..dont wake up so early..juz carry on with ur flirting life..it can cure ur everything!

LOL..i know i very bo liao..haha..BO LIAO!

i juz cant sleep!

OMG, i'm super hyper active now. I dont know why! I juz cant sleep! Not sleepy at all..I didnt get to sleep well yesterday, and yet i'm still hyper. Maybe too many things in my head right now. Ok i think i had enough of stupid relationship thingy. I think i'm going for a hair cut few days later to change to a new image! And i need to go for jogging, i think from tml onwards! I need to set myself a target!

First: Slim down!

Second: Get fit!

Third: Concentrate on my assignment!

Fourth: Drink less!

JIA YOU!

sick sick and sick..

I dont know wat happen to me today..Head and eye kinda pain..

Now im still waiting for her sms but after yesterday things occur, she not the same as usual. Because normally she will text me asking me, wat am i doing? Or maybe some other stupid text from her.. =P I was damn freaking sad when i saw one of her msg. She wrote.."but the me now...cannot keep him away from me." Omg was so hurt when saw this msg. I tot i still can be able to take it..but..Haiz..Erm i know why my eye so pain liao..coz actually feel like crying but coz no tear coming out from my eye and cause my eye to be so hurtful.

I keep waiting for the phone to ring, yet i know it wont be you.

I tried to fill my life with busyness, yet all i do is think of you.

How could you turn and walk away, as i watch my castles turn to sand.

How could you forget me so easily, and you i cant erase.

I want you to be in my arms again, to see the laughter in your eyes.

BUT i guess the joke's on me..

This is the feeling that im facing now. OH noes..Later think going my house nearby and drink a few bottles of beer. Since how tired i am, i still cant get to sleep..Why not go and relax plus refresh my mind abit? Erm..15 more mins i go down ba..Bye!

Hate myself

I HATE MYSELF FOR BEEN MYSELF!

Yesterday went to boat quay, to look for Clarence as K2 told me that he was very emo. But ended up i myself was the one damn emo. Was drinking and playing happily until the one appear. And saw something that really hurt me..I tried to control my feeling for not letting my emotional out. But actually i failed to do so. Do u know something? My tear suddenly flow out from my eye! But lucky, im wearing cap and cover everything up~ Its my second time that i damn damn emo when im still in the pub. Emo till my tear flow out from my eye. I totally cannot take it, den i find someone to flirt with! But when i found i notice i got no mood to flirt anymore. Haiz..Tot she was the one for me to settle down, but ended up..I think it was kinda impossible anymore because i totally cant replace the "he" from "her" heart~ OMG i start to emo again~ Damn control myself please! BYE!

lala..

Erm..didnt blog the past few days because was kinda lazy..haha..

Yesterday went to Zhu Kai's house with Siquan and Jeff. Was drinking and playing card game but i dont know why, i was so damn tired when the time strike around 3am. After Jeff went home, me, Siquan and Zhu Kai start talking about what we had been doing when we was young. Was actually singing the whole night too..haha..

Siquan, dont be sad ok? Just try your best with whatever you can. I know its hard for you to take it about your relationship life, but try not to look back to your past and must look forward of your further! Understand?

In a serious relationship, dont ever make the wrong move. If you make the wrong move, you will end up suffering! If you want to settle down, please settle down properly by not making any mistake. As for me, i think its time for me to settle down..I really dont wish to play around like what i did during the past. Erm..Haha..lazy to blog liao lor..coz its time for me to call someone liao! =D I notice i took alot of stupid photo yesterday before sleep. Haha..Think was drunk? Haha!