I'm Back!

Wah been months since i last blog! Haha..Maybe because this few days, i'm busy over my work and also play! Been drinking damn alot recently but i think i'm gonna stop soon..Erm not say stop, but to drink less!

Work

Was damn busy..tons of project to do..In the office, i look like a idiot doing tons of project with less pay! SO angry la!

Friendship

Was so happy to have all my brother and sister with me now..I will not neglect this brother and sister of mine! I promise..

Relationship

Kinda stable nowadays..No longer the emo Alan like last time..There are times when both of us quarrel, but i was in blame for all cause because i never keep my promise to her. I promise her that i will never ever let her hand off..Gal..believe me hao ma? Now in my eye i wont have any other women if they are not you. Unless the girl is pretty den i see see look look awhile shouldn't be any problem right?

Gal...

I love you..I promise there will be no lies from me again...

Meant to be alone!

I will be gone 2 days later. I'm so tired of Singapore due to the relationship i had previously. Why must i keep suffering all alone when other just don't care? Hand was so swollen due to what i did earlier. This will be my last time doing such a stupid thing ever again. Take care to all my friends.

Road to Success!

This few days, i'm so busy doing my projects. The clients was like keep incoming. I think i will stop all the deal for the time being as we have tons of project to do. Need to wait till we finishing our project than continues with other new projects.

Life nowadays was so relaxing that i either slacking at home or outing with my bros and sister! Actually nothing much to update also, because nowadays also nothing special happening. Those gangster stuff, i wanna put one side..Wanna move on to my road of success! haha!

Yesterday went to boat quay with Eunice, Jenny, K2 and a group of friends who we know them from boat quay. Was drinking at 7987 but i dont actually like the environment there as the place there was like so small and hardly for me to walk around. Didnt get drunk yesterday because i drank really very less. I dont really enjoy at boat quay yesterday, and i found it kinda bored, so i decided to went home early while k2 they all dont know going where.

Now in my mind, the only thing i want is to earn as much money as possible. Wanna own a car so i can be able to travel around freely without worrying about cab fare.

Ok time to look at the forum now as i posted a error that i faced while installing Joomla in my mac. Bye!

New computer..

I'm so happy! Want to know why? Because this is the first time i buy laptop using my own money! Haha..And also kinda happy that i getting more and more project recently. Wanna close more deal and earn as much money as possible!

I love my macbook pro 15.4 inch so much! And i even make it a dual OS so i can be able to play game using my macbook too! Wahaha..i can read EXE file! So nice right?

Keep going to boat quay nowadays as Kelvin last day at speed working, and tons of reason. Haha..now i'm no longer as emo as perviously! Been trying to control myself recently, actually there's time when i really feel like busting out but lucky enough..I'm good at controlling! Haha! Now i also dont wanna care so much anymore! Now the only thing i wanna care is my career! Think i'm going to bathe now..den after that decide what to do. Bye all!

Back to update

I'm back to update my blog now. Was kinda busy the past few days due to my 2 project that the clients asked for. Fully flash website and blogshop. This is just my starting, after i complete this 2 projects, i believe there are more to come.

Mother, thanks for fully supporting me. I know you willing to fork out money to help me setup a company, but now isn't the time for me yet. Because i still leak of experience in this line. But i believe that, after few more project and i'm very familiar with it i don't mind risk it.

Everything went quite smoothly this few days/weeks. Nothing actually happen..Relaxing, chit chatting with friends or maybe chill out with buddy. I find myself a grown up guy due to the thinking of mine started to change. I'm no longer like last time who only know how to fight, play and hanging around doing nothing. The only thing i hope now is that i can be able to become a successful person.

A friend of mine yesterday said me in msn.."Alan, stop emo-ing over relationship. I still got alot of aims in life, what for coz of a relationship that cause my aim to lost their way?"

Ya what for coz of a relationship make my pathway so difficult? I can still be able to enjoy my life like what i did this past few days. Why am i keep running away from her whereby i did nothing wrong? Why am i so stupid to suffer all this while? The only thing i want to focus now is my project. I must complete it and making sure that my clients is going to be happy with my work! Jiayou Alan!

Hi all, i'm back!

Its 2010 now! And say good bye to 2009!

Been sometime since i last blog, quite happening nowadays. I also dont know how and wat to say. Life nowadays was so freaking boring and lonely! Kinda hate this kind of life! My life nowadays really went up and down. Emotion may change alot of times everyday. I was hoping that the year 2010 is the year that i can put my past away and move on to my bright future. But i juz cant put everything behind! The stupid thing will keep flashing in my mind every single hour.

Been drinking damn alot nowadays. Drunk is the only thing that happen to me on my everyday routine. But wat can i do? Hope my day becoming much better after few days..

Gonna have a neat haircut soon =D

Tomorrow or after tomorrow, i'm going to have a neat hair cut. Most likely will be short hair. Gonna say bye to my ah beng's hair style.

Today i'm damn tired! Want to know why? Started from yesterday, yesterday went to buy my formal shirt, pant and leather shoes. After that travel all the way from bugis to pasir ris to meet my friend. After that, went to meet Jeff because Jenny and Siquan went to look for him. Went to boat quay after meeting my brothers and sister. Erm..the night consider enjoy? Or? Can say half half? After everything, i went home alone..Ya..alone again..haha..By the time i reached home, it was already 7.30am! At 11am, my sister woke me up because i need to go bai bai at bedok! OMG..Was sooooo dead tired!

Was wondering why my life nowadays was so fuck up? Alot of problems pop up, and i need to settle and face it all alone! I dont know i can tolerate until when before i collapse. I really need someone there to give me a moral support, but too bad there isn't anyone..

Lazy to type..think i gonna rest awhile more! Bye!

Erm..getting close..

Ok first of all..I would like to say..My family business getting worst! And i may ended up supporting myself! OMG..means wont be going bq often as i need to learn and support myself.

I'm very busy nowadays because over my personal problems. Need to settle tons of things..omg..i'm so broke now! Now what i need to do is, put everything (eg. relationship, friendship, family) aside and concentrate on my stuff. As i'm running out of time!

I'm so tired right now..There is no one beside me supporting me..Was very very very tired..i may fall anytime..My mother asked me to go back and help out with my dad, but i rejected. Not i dont want, but i really dont know what to do even i work under my dad's company. Really hope that is someone special beside me and letting me lean. But this is just a wish..

Grr suddenly something pop up and i'm very stress..need to settle it first...

blog blog and blog~

Sooo bloody long never update my blog after i finish my exam. Nowadays also nothing serious happen..Drink..at home sleep, PPS.. Nothing much also..

Actually something happen to my family business. Actually was quite shocked after know wat is happening. I gonna depending on myself in the future..Was so excited..My sister they all said, how am i gonna survive without my parent's support. I'm so excited about depending on myself! =D

Nowadays alot of girls hate me alot. I dont blame them for hating me because its my fault. Just hope they learn their lesson from me..never even trust a guy so much! I also dont know wat to type..Nothing more to type..i think i gonna rest awhile..

No mood~

Today i'm so moody~ No mood to do anything, maybe today is the 7th ba..I notice something that's strange..Want to know why?

Wondering why everything that happen to me alway occur on the 7th? So coincident? 8 years ago on the 7th is the date when me and my ex girlfriend been together. 8 years later, 7th also the date when i said bye to her. The her not referring to my ex. I hate to said bye to her..but i had no choice..Just hope that she will be happy and know how to take care of herself. Hope she can find someone will force her to eat medicine when she's sick as she really hate taking medicine. Who will entertain her to the lanshop killing zombie, accompany her drinking when she wanna relax because she like to go out and relax after loads of work. Listen to her complain because she loves to complain about her work due to her manager. Pretending to sleep when she was sad, because she dun really cry when there is someone beside her looking at her. Let her bite, because she love to bite very randomly. Listen to her crap because she crap alot. And tolerate her everything~

I have change..Change to someone tat dun trust love..And also change to someone that i use to be..My sister keep telling me.. "Boy, please dun do stupid things. I know u been hurt, but dun because of u been hurt and u hurt some others. Remember, KAMA this word." Yes i do believe in KAMA, but what to do? In order to stop other from hurting me, i need to do it my way and ignore KAMA. Yesterday at boat quay, i do alot of nonsense by flirting around. I tot i will feel happy by doing so, but its not!

Tomorrow is my web engineering exam, and i still dont have any mood to study. But no matter what, i will try my very best in my exam.

Actually, in my mind i was thinking of leaving Singapore and go back to Taiwan. Why am i still here and keep thinking of her? I will be enjoying myself when i'm back from Taiwan. Be those rich kid and spoil by the parent. Driving around and woo gals. This idea keep flashing in my mind almost everyday!

I miss u, but do u miss me? I dun think u will be missing me as u are busying missing someone that u love. I do really hope to see u, but i know i should hold myself back. When i'm not around, please take good care of urself. I will try to forget u because this is the task i need to do. When one day we really coincident to see each other on the road, i hope i can still holding back my feeling towards you.

Just now i said bye to you when u are sleepy..Now i would like to say..Bye to u again..Bye..

Exam fever..

Tomorrow will be my first exam this sem..And the module is ISE (Information System Engineering). The module which i kinda hate it. Today i didnt attend school to meet Febby they all for study session due to certain reason. But i heard from Febby that some student failed their ISE assignment which really freak me out! I hope i'm not one of them who fail! I really grow tiring day by day studying..Hope my study end fast!

There are tons of event incoming during my exam period. But too bad i cant attend, as i mention earlier i'm having exam!

Tonight, i'm not going to sleep as i need to study real hard for my tomorrow exam. OMG i'm out of cig! Need to go down and buy but kinda waste of time! Brought 3 cans of redbull to keep myself awake through the whole endless night.

Been study past year exam paper this few days, hope it really work. If tomorrow exam didnt come out any question that i had studied this past few days, i think i'm going to find the tallest building in Singapore and act like a superman!

I wanna rest awhile more before entering the study mode..Was so damn tiring looking at words..Oh ya! Damn i had lost my spectacular! The words now i'm looking was like so damn blur! Actually my sis asked me to buy a new spec, but i dont really want to because my exam end at 8th! So what for wasting the money am i right?

Think around 3 pus close to 4, i'm going downstair to the 7-11 and buy cig. Tomorrow i still need to smoke so what for wait for tomorrow? I also need to give myself sometime and relax..stay away from books too..! My table full of bullshit now! Ok time to entering study mode! Bye and good luck to me!

Woot got back my lappy!

I juz got back my lappy..But Sony service quite suck! Want to know why?

Reason:

Sent my lappy to service since 18 Nov, and now its 1st Dec..They told me it only took 3 to 5 working days to repair my laptop but ended up wait for weeks! And yesterday i called them and told them whether my laptop is ready to collect? They said they cant find any problem, so i told them the problem..They replied me that since if i said the problem was right, means i need to change my whole mother board which cost me about 1k plus! I was shocked and in my mind was thinking.."WTH! You dare to change my motherboard without knowing/checking the true reason why my laptop ended in this situation?" Screw it la! So i said nvm i gonna collect it back without changing my laptop's motherboard, but just set it as default stage! After that he said he will give me a sms to collected it by yesterday. So i waited the whole afternoon and no sms from them! So this early after i called them up and asked them. They replied me that they gonna sms me again by 2 to 3pm for collection. So i wait and wait..when the time strike 5 and still no news from them! So i called them again and asked. They said by 7 i can be able to collect, but before i collect, i need to call them and ask them whether its ready or not! So i called them when its 7pm, but no one ans the bloody call! Ended up i went there without notice them as i called alot of times. When i reached there, i asked them..Guess what they said? They said my laptop is ready to collect and it already arrived very long ago! I was so piss off during that time! The service sucks to the hell la!

Kinda happening the past few days..

Found that friendship cant really be trust..

Food poisoning

Drunk..

Ok thats all..kinda lazy to post..bye all!

Computer!

Yesterday went to K2's house to help him and Jenny with their computer stuff. Woot..repair until 12 plus am and lucky enough and took my last bus home. When i'm on the bus, i notice i was doing nothing because i dont have anything that can entertain me with me! Oh no..started to think alot of rubbish since i had nothing to do on the bus! Thinking of my past..Kind of interesting past i had before! Haha..I really go through alot..

Later i need to travel all the way to my sister's company and help her repairing her company's computer! Oh..the time is kinda pack sia..because i still got alot of things to do =( But what to do..she's my sister..if i dont help her..who am i gonna help? Haha..

at the cinema..Haha..omg..so Yesterday me and K2 planning to watch movie..haha..only he and me..both of us gonna en en ai ai digesting..haha!

I'm still waiting for my lappy to return back to me! I miss my lappy so much! Oh please! Return it back to me as soon as possible can? I really cant do alot of things without my lappy with me! =(

My Vaio lappy was in the hospital =(

I wont be blogging this few days due to my lappy was in the hospital. My graphic card was burn and need to replace it with a new card, so no other choice but send to the service center. Now i'm using my old laptop which was kinda sux. And due to my HP lappy video card was down too, i can be able to on my comp for certain limit of times only. After that i cant be able to use for days because it will give me 3 long beep and 2 short beep error sound when i start my HP laptop.

I finally make a final decision 2 days ago. Guess this is the right decision for me. I know it's too sudden but i have no other choice! Been really down this past few days, but no matter wat happen, i believe that i can still overcome it! I just need to back to my normal routine that i had been last time. For those who know me well sure know what is my routine. I know back to that routine was kinda..erm..crazy? LOL!

Nowadays, alot of people really concern me alot..i can see and feel that. My two sister keep showing me that they care of me no matter what. Because this few days, i keep close myself in the bedroom after i'm back from outside..Den both of my sister will gently knock on my door and enter the room, sit beside me and asked me whether i'm ok? I know i'm hot temper when they asked me softly, but i just cant be able to control it, but they understand my feeling..they never scolded me when i vent my anger on them or showing my attitude..they juz telling me softly that they will wait for me to tell them about my problem if i feel the time is right to tell them. Both my jie..thanks =D

Now my blood becoming very cold..haha..Actually i dont mind to be a cold hearted guy as been a cold hearted guy wont hurt myself =D

I really hate the feeling of been alone..But guess its fated that i need to be alone. No matter how hard i tried, the final answer will ended up with disappointment. And i notice..been a good guy will really ended up get nothing in return, so what for been such a good guy? Been a bad guy will be the best..

This few days, i notice i really neglect my brotherhood alot..I really very sorry abt that..i wont blame u all guys if you all angry with me, as i know..not worth to forgive me..and i also wont ask for forgiveness. I know u all may look fine in front of me..or u all forgive me..but deep in my heart, i juz cant be able to forgive myself..

Think i'm back to 4 to 5 years ago.. Whatever things happen..i will need to face it all alone..cried alone when i faced something that i cant be able to solved. Vent anger on the wall or some other stranger..I deserve it..

I swear..i wont trust other so easily..

Take care..

i'm back!

I'm back from so long recovering! Was lying on my bed this past few days due to the injury i got from Boat Quay! Was quite boring!

Yesterday went to boat quay once again, and was like so bored! Drank until 4am and i cannot took the tiredness anymore, and decided to go home. Was abit sick yesterday, headache during the night!

I really dont wish to study anymore! Was so stress while studying. And somemore i totally dont have any mood to study anymore! The only thing i hope to do now is..finding a job as soon as possible! Get my paid and relax! Haha..I dont mind doing the same things over and over again, as i know working life will bored!

Unlucky day

I can say, yesterday was a very unlucky day for me!

Broken nose~

Nose bleeding~

Head bleeding~

Mouth got cuts~

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Its very pain..but not as pain as my heart! My heart hurt the most! Its the end...

Assignment fever!

Now i'm going to draw my AON (Activity On Node) for my Project Management! Haha..I really hate doing assignment! Hope to finish my studying life as fast as possible!

Today been staying at home the whole day..Erm actually not really staying at home the whole day, i did went to Hougang mall..The reason for me to travel to Hougang mall was to buy comic! Haha..lame right? But no choice, yesterday is the day when it release my fav comic.

I want to play Aion! I really cant wait to get it started! But first of all i need to finish everything that i need to do for my school! If not i dont think i can be able to play! Oh ya..change to desktop too! I dont want to play game using my laptop again!

This few days, i'm kinda happy! Haha dont ask me why because i myself also dont know why! Today is Friday, and i'm going to enjoy myself! Oh ya..just now when i'm surfing the net, a sweater and a vest caught my eye! And doesn't cost alot! I decide to buy both of them! Woot really love it alot!

Guys please give me some comment please! Leave a tag for me..If i buy the vest..Can i go with a jean or need a pant? If i go with a jean, do it look odd? I'm kinda stress because i never wear a vest before! Really thanks if u all give me some comment..Thanks! And oh ya..Above the 2 vest, which of them u all prefer? =D Thanks!

Assignment sucks!

This few days was a very relaxing day to me! So happy!

I just reach home not ago from school, was so stress over my assignment nowadays because my due date of my assignment reaching soon! Was so stress! I need to finish my 3 assignment within 20 days time! I really need to work extra harder right now! How i wish there is someone beside me and give me a moral support! Haha!

Oh yeah pearlyn's birthday just pass few days ago, and felt kinda sorry for not going over to her mini birthday's party at boat quay. Because during that time, i was like dead drunk la! Haha..! Coz was keep drinking drinking and drinking!

I set a goal for myself this month..And the goal is..I gonna finish off all my assignment this month! Woot! Guys do wish me luck ok? Today is Monday and yet there still got tons of people asking me whether i got go boat quay anot..Arlow guys..today is Monday and how am i suppose to go boat quay during Monday when Tuesday i still need to go to school!

Later i need to do my Project Management assignment, omg it was so damn hard ok! Guys if u got any rough idea for that assignment..please feel free to give me a call and teach me what to do! I will be happy like hell! =D

So happy nowadays, and hope my happiness wont go away so fast! Happiness keep me going on!

Peaceful Day~

Today been staying at home the whole day! Haha..actually plan to go national library, but coz of certain reason ended up didnt go.

Febby juz called me:

Febby: Alan..U finally pick up my phone, been trying to contact u since 2 to 3 days ago!

Me: Oh sorry, u finding me for?

Febby: Wat happen to u? Why didnt attend lesson? Something bother u?

Me: Erm nothing serious..and thank you for your concern.

Febby: And hows ur assignment? Due date arriving soon. So u ready?

Me: Ah..kinda sianz sia..damn stress. Nowadays too many stuff stuck in my brain and make me lose control of my brain!

Febby: Relax..why not tomorrow u come to school? Tml no lesson but me and Fendy will be studying at school. U come and look for us, we will try to help u ok?

Me: Omg..Febby thanks so much! Thanks for helping me!

Febby and Fendy..really thanks for showing me both of your caring. I really never regret knowing both of you as my friends! I think without both of ya, i dont think i can really cope up with my school work and assignment.

Today i had been spending quite a happy and peaceful day at home! =D Although nothing special, but i juz very happy la! Erm..ya very happy..

I wanna say sorry to K2, coz he been asking me out this 2 days, but i keep rejecting him. Coz i really dont have any mood to go too far away from my house..Really very sorry!

Omg, im still coughing! Really hate this virus so much! I think thats all for today, and gonna relax abit coz tml i muz 100% go to school as i already promise Febby! Nite all!

Well well well..

Its 4.15am right now, and i'm still awake! i dont know why nowadays during the wee hour and i'm alway very awake. I think i need to try and sleep no matter what because tomorrow i'm going to National Library at Bugis alone. Yes alone again..Already use to it.

I notice i really cant be able to study at home. I will either sleep, watch pps or playing games! OMG! Btw this afternoon when i was looking around Youtube, i found 1 interesting game that caught my attention. The game call Aion. I want to play la! Haha..I gonna play that Aion online right after my exam or after i found myself a job.

I got tons of things to do right after my exam. And the things are:

Build a new CPU for myself. (Sick of laptop)

Looking for a stable job.

Meet new people.

Anger Management. (No choice because when i start working, i need to control my temper.)

Oh ya, did i mention enjoy before starting of work?

Play Aion Online!

But of course, first of all i need to study for my exam and also finish up my assignment too! Nowadays i really very stress over my assignment. Whenever i'm sleeping, i still can dream of my assignment! I think i'm overstress!

Ok guess now i really need to try and sleep..Oh i need to take my medicine before sleeping! Damn, been coughing for about 5 days! Kinda sick of coughing right now! Hope by tomorrow i can be able to recover! Night guys!